Hi,
One of the greatest things and worst things I ever found leaveing TWI was emotions.It can be a good thing I reacted the same way of loss and I too turned off the news but I also found a way to give and that helped.
Embrace your feelings and dont condem your self for feeling them.
I have been though incest, rape , abuse , divorce loseing a job and on and on as I was in Twi I sutffed all that and said it all died at the cross it was a fun place to lvie ha.
When I got out of TWI I learned how to face it more honestly and healing has begun real healing.