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  1. The other day I called in to a radio station and received a free reading from a psychic medium. She mentioned a maternal presence and asked me if I had a stepmother that died recently-no, but my stepmothers mom died and she and I were close and described her personality.

    I asked her questions about my husband and she relayed a few details of my husbands death including that I gave the instructions to take him off life support and apparently my husband wanted to say thank-you, she knew Connecticut was attached to me somehow- I was born there- and then I told her about my plans to move to Louisville, KY. She said, you can move there if you like, but you won't like it there. You will wind up back in NY or Conn.

    Now I don't think you can just believe the part you want and discard the rest. If she is accurate, I may be making a wrong move. However, if twi was right, this info is coming from devil spirits. If I was a devil spirit, I would relay just what she did- be accurate about the past and try to screw up someones present and future.

    What do you think of psychic mediums like John Edward? Where do you think the information is coming from?

  2. Thanks for your responses!!

    Cman, I have looked a little on Craiglist- there isn't much out there right now. However my sister-in-law works for the hospital system and has has about 80 people under her- I have done billing for a law office the last 4 years and I asked her if she could try and get me in entry level medical billing and she said yes. Also I really feel that if God is encouraging this change like I think He is, then the job will follow.

    Shell, I know I can always count on you for some words of wisdom. We both belong to the club that no one ever wants to be a part of! You get me, you really get me! (spoken like Sally Fields) yes the unknown is very scary but also exciting too. This one is a big void full of homesickness and possibilities.

    Bulwinkl, I would appreciate any more inside information you have about the' Ville! Do you like it there? It is very pretty but the people talk funny. hahah I guess I am looking for an office job- I have worked as the head of the payoff deartment in a law office- foreclosures- and I was the liaison between the banks and the people losing their homes. Payment plans, short payoffs, etc.- you would think our office would have been busy, wouldn't you...

    Pond, that is some story- I hope I will be as happy in the job I eventually find sometime in the New Year. Life is full of surprises. I hope your family situation works itself out so you can see your grandkids.

    Leafytwiglet, I love your siamese gif- I have 2 cats of my own. Change can absolutely be the best thing but until you find a new comfort zone it is scary!! I think I have problems making decisions because I want to make the right one!! You know, those 4 d's of doulos doings- decision, desire, details, deliverence- is one of the things I think twi was right on about. (even though I have been heard to make fun of it)

    Zshot, my parents are in AZ but I am not moving there. The weather is great in Tucson but the family that wants me is in KY.

    Krys, you are so right about looking forward to it as an adventure. I think it will be when the time comes, it is the anticipation that is making me anxious. I have been to Louisville 3x this year and the housing is at least one half of what it is here. You know long Island- amenities- what's that? I took an application for a complex I liked- and I am hoping to be able to move most of my stuff. My dad thought I should start over with all new things but I was married and had a life, and want to keep as much as possible. Furniture, dishes, TV, puter, framed prints and paintings, books, etc. will go. Small appiances can be tossed as well as most of my clothes. I could donate my cats to the Chinese restaurant next door and get new ones in KY but I guess I'd miss 'em too much...:

    And thank-you Thomas, kimberly, georgestgeogre, and daddyhoundog- I appreciate all you had to say. Thanks everyone for your input, it really helped me to write it all out and to read your thoughts on the matter.

  3. Is it negative confession for me to say that change scares the bejezus out of me?

    In the last 3 years and 3 months, I lost my husband to cancer, 2 grandparents died, then the guy I dated for 14 months dumped me in August, and in September I lost my job of 20 years.

    I live on Long Island- was sent here as a wow in '82- and it is too expensve to live here on my own any longer. I have no family here (although I do have 2 girlfriends and I am like a member of their families)- and I do not own a home. I don't want to be 70 years old and still forking out most of my income on rent. A condo would be nice but not do-able here.

    So...my step brother and his wife and daughter live in is in Louisville KY and they would like it if I moved there. So would my dad and step-mom in AZ, my mom in Indianapolis (2 hours away)- and my sister and nieces in Cleveland (5 hours away). I have vague plans to move there in the spring when my NY unemployment is used up- if I don't get hired by someone in the meantime. And you know what it is like "out there" right now!

    I am very scared of being totally out of my comfort zone at my age- living in a new place, moving on my own, finding a new job- God, how do you look for work in the 21st century-...I love it here but it seems like Long Island is telling me not to let the door hit my butt on the way out. Or like when God closes a door He opens a window. I feel like all my possibilites hre have been used up, like a battery that has lost all its juice.

    My friends don't want me to go but they understand. Not much left for me here anymore. I sure miss my old life.

  4. In answer to the thread question- YES!

    I graduated from college in 1982 and went that year. I prayed for a “major city with a beach” as my happiest childhood memories are of family vacations in Martha’s Vineyard and I had been land-locked in Indiana and Ohio for 15 years. I got sent to Long Island.

    After the year ended I stayed (having no other place to go as my father moved to Arizona, my sister to Cleveland and my mother was in Indiana) and 26 years later I am still here.

    I only have a few things that keep me here- mainly comfort and familiarity. My husband has been gone for 2 ½ year, my current job of 2 years is pretty uninspiring (but in today’s economy a job is a job right?); I have 2 very good girlfriends that I see too infrequently and I am dating a nice man who I will never live with or marry because of our many differences.

    I sometimes wonder if I should start over somewhere else- somewhere with a lower coast of living. I also have wondered what my life would be like- if I hadn't gone wow.

  5. 1. What web site is this?

    GSC

    2. What Area of the Web site is this test in?

    About the Way

    3. Do you still believe The Way Ministry was not a cult?

    I believe that is was less of a cult if to those not way corps but yes it was/is a cult

    4.Do you still love to see Victor Paul Wierwille at the Rock?

    assuming I ever did and no

    5. Do you still plan to go to the Rock of Ages?

    only if I had alzeimers

    6. Are you planing to go WOW this year?

    this was written before 1995 obviously, my wow year was pretty cool actually, I am too old for that crap now

    7. Do you still give money to the Way ministry?

    always tried not to

    8. Are running a class in your home right now?

    ha, my little apt would barely hold a small twig

    9. Do you feel sorry that the Way ministry lost a lot of people?

    no, I am amazed at all the people that stayed around after VPW died and POP

    10. Do you still believe the Way doctrines were of God?

    I believe that the basics of christianity are of God and if twi taught them then they did something right

    11. Is it possible Victor Paul Wierwille lie to you?

    It is impossible that he did not

    12. Do you still pray for Victor Paul Wierwille?

    never did and now he is dead, the only dead man I pray for is my husband

    13. Do you still send money to move the Word of the Way forward?

    they owe ME money

    14. Do you still go to Limb cookouts?

    ha, this too is an old question

    15. Do you still with pride have a Way sticker on your car?

    I NEVER PUT ONE ON MY CAR and got reproved big time

    16. Do you still sing at your home fellowship?

    I sing alone in bed sometimes

    17. Do you still hide from people who have been mark and avoided by the Way ministry?

    That would mean I hide from myself which I cannot do because wherever I go there I am

    18. Do you still witness about the class?

    yes would be a silly answer

    19. Were you smart to get out of the Way ministry?

    a BIG YES but it sure hurt at the time

    20. Did you stay to long in the Way ministry?

    Yes, and then I went back but I met my husband and things worked out the way they were supposed to

  6. I was referred to John Shroyer by a mutual friend after I was marked and avoided from TWI in Feb. 1998 and was having difficulty "getting over it".

    He was kind enough to speak with me several times and was instrumental in my healing. He sent me the book about cults and CFF tapes, etc. and did not ask for or expect anything in return.

    What a kind and generous man he was to me! I am so, so sad to hear of this news. My heart goes out to his family and friends.

  7. Thanks for your reply. Occasionally I dream that I am with them after so many years and I tell them, you know I always dream about you guys and then I wake up.

    Dave and Karen were/are 2 of the warmest, most down to earth people- I would love for them to know that they are still in my thoughts even after all these years.

  8. ((((Hope)))))

    I am so sorry that you have had the loss of your mom. I understand about the need to post a eulogy- that was beautiful, I did the same thing after my husband passed away.

    Sweetie, I am so very sorry that you are a member of the club that no one ever wants to belong to. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers during these dark days.

    Hopefull a/k/a the other Hope

  9. By the way Per, my husband ate mayo and PB sandwiches on white and I used to tease him about it.

    It had to be Hellman's regular mayo (not lite and certainly not miracle whip!) and skippy or jif (smooth) on wonder white bread.

    I never would give it a try but he often offered.

  10. Great topic.

    I grew up with Miracle Whip and didn't have mayo until I came to NY as a WOW in 1982. My wow family thought I was nuts that I never had mayo.

    A few months ago I had a double coupon for miracle whip and it was on sale so I got it as it cost me almost nothing and so I gave it a shot for the first time in 23 years.

    I liked it at first cuz it was a novelty from the past.

    But after 2 sandwiches with the stuff I remember not ever liking it. It's nasty.

    I will get Hellman's mayo (light) next time and won't ever look back.

  11. After I wrote my post I realized maybe it sounded like I am feeling sorry for myself. :doh:

    It's not that at all.

    It's the memories of Christmas past- the void is more marked at this time of year. It's because Christmas means so much to me...

    I sent gifts to family and mailed cards- otherwise, I ignored the impending Christmas until just a few days ago- perhaps next year I will have the foresight to arrange to volunteer at a shelter or something like that. Tonight I hope to stay up so late that I will wake up at noon and then I am going to a friends house for dinner. Then I'll be safe. Thank God for friends!!

    Anyway ladies, thanks for the replies. WW you have always been dear to my heart , Krys you are such a sweet lady and I get what you are saying and you are right about getting outside of yourself- but for me, volunteering in a hospital is out of the question.

    I couldn't even go to the bereavement group in the hospital. :unsure:

    Shell, as always it takes one to know one- you always get it- and I think of you often as well. HUGS

    Merry Christmas... :wave:

  12. Tomorrow I will be alone for Christmas day.

    Last year I was busy in Arizona with my dad and step mom and had lots of stimulation so I was spared many of the emotions as a result of being without my husband during the holidays. This year I am dreading it.

    For the first time ever, I have not put up a tree or any decorations in the hopes that tomorrow will be like any other day. But it's not. I have a few presents to open from my folks without anyone to ooh and awe with. The joy you get when watching others open what you have chosen for them out of love and thoughfulness is something I will miss. Plus fixing a nice big breakfast, listening to Christmas music together, (in NY we have the infamous "yule log" which I cannot bear to put on tv this year,) etc. All of my Christmas mornings with my husband were warm and cozy and filled with love and laughter.

    Disappointments in expectations are huge for a lot of people at the holidays. I would like to hear from anyone who feels that Christmas day will be harder than it will be happy.

    After all, misery loves company.

  13. I would like to take this opportunity to say thank-you to Mike Anders*n, no. 1 under the prez. cabinet- for marking and avoiding my then fiance and giving me the ultimatum to choose between TWI and him.

    I chose him and had 7 years and 17 days of marriage without the influence of TWI.

    So, thanks Rev. Anderson, you did me a favor. I didn't think so at the time but I know so now.

  14. Holding it in for all these years must be hard- confession is good for the soul and I think he is ready to pop.

    I hope this doesn't further hurt those whom he has devestated.

    I am curious as to what he plans to say- but I sure wouldn't pay to read it.

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