1 john 3:1

Kit, I am so sorry, I was told quite a while ago that greasespot was closed and that's why I haven't been on for a long time.

Here is Baylie's link. She and her family (now have a brother almost two & a new baby due soon). They were given a new home for the family & Baylie is thriving. Still has some issues with UTI's and a few others but she is a trooper. ENJOY THE PICTUES and again I apologize for not having posted. Life has been very busy the last two years.

Bless you,

PS You may have to join caring bridge to view but it's worth it, it's a great site to keep up with people and minister.

http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/baylie

Baylie is doing much better..........amazing God !

Starting new business, update to follow. Please keep it in your prayers.

"The hopeful news is my son and his girlfriend are getting married the 26th. They provide firm consistent discipline and a stable environment for the lad. They are also providing him with a little brother next month;how that will work out I don't know, but grandson will come up to her and hug the baby already, so I expect he's excited about it.

To make a short story long, I completely agree that this is 5-year-old boy stuff. Not to mention crowded into a 2 bedroom apartment with 4 adults and sleeping in his mother's bed YET!"

Sounds to me WG that if your son and daughter in law hang in there and get an apt. w/two or three BR's they will get custody. It's unhealthy for your grandson to be in a 2 BR w/ all those other people and I'm sure the court will find Daddy a little more stabile. In addition where we live we have DYFUS. They have no problem removing children, even on "speculation" of abuse. The child will be out the same day. Do not know if you have the same agency, gut something to think about. Verbal & mental is also abuse. As for the other grandmother, what goes around comes around and God would rather a noose be put around her neck. She will make her own bed and have to lie in it when God get's thru with his vengence on her for "trying" to hurt this little one. Five year olds are still babies for God's sake.

Just a few updates and new pictures of the children with their little brother Nehemiah.

Baylie is doing amazing, she certainly holds her own. God is good always.

http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/baylie

They have been a disruptive force long enough...this is a privately owned website and not a democracy...and I personally believe that it would be a great idea if Paw decided to get rid of those who constantly disrupt threads, belittle the victims of Wierwille, defend Wierwille, and generally go against the mission of the GSC.

I question their agenda and why they are here...this is not a question of honest debates and differing opinions...this is a deliberate attempt by certain people to shut down threads with their pro-Wierwille rhetoric.

I say it's time to boot them out!

Ummm does this ring loudly of "mark and avoid". Have we come full circle?

One day he was very out of control, not listening to the teachers and refusing to get out of the pool. Then we went to the grocery store and he messed around there, also. I took him out to the car and we had a serious discussion of his behavior and his need to control himself. We went back in and he did just fine.

Watered Garden, I have been away for a while and just catching up. Let me tell you about ADD ADHD. Most of the children in school have been introduced to instutionalized socialism. They are like little stepford children. It sound like some of the acting out may be due to the changes in your grandson's life but I will tell you that he sounds like a NORMAL 5 year old to me. He will start to settle down after around 6 but dicipline is important. Sounds like lazy FDIL & her mother.

Anyway the good news. They now realize that most CEO's and heads of companies (the ones who are agressive and can't sit still & focus and have a TALENT for multitasking) were the same as your grandson. It is unfair of society to call it ADD ADHD when in reality they are very bright and trying to express their inner talents that should be drawn out of them. Don't be frustrated he is very talented.

There is a great book out called Born To Be Wild, should be able to get it at any book store. Bottom line this too shall pass. The dicipline for him as an individual done with love & tenderness will help him. He needs to feel loved. God is on your side, get your heart deeply into the Word and cast your care upon Him.

I know it's frustrating too much pressure is put on kids today. Most children are NOT average, they are above. God bless your heart!

Almost out of the woods.........God is good always. These guys are amazing.

http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/baylie

These kids should never have to go thru this crap. Will definitely keep him in prayer.

Sorry to hear the news, will keep you all in prayer too!

Here is an update from Baylie's Father Don!

"Hi everyone!

We had a very good day with good news and good results. Baylie was sating 90% from last night and through out the whole day she even reached as much as 92% which is very good. She is also peeing so much that she is starting to get rid of the extra fluid in her body. Please continue to keep her in prayer as she is still very sick. We as a family are looking at a long stay @ Kansas City for a while, even when she recovers from her infection. It has come to Julie and my attention that some people came to see the B.G. Racer today and were told that she was not there. Sorry if you were turned away and for driving all the way up and not being able to see her. She is very much @ Children's Mercy on the 2nd floor (PICU) room 8 under the name Baylie Newcomb. Please ask the security to dubble check the paper work and if you still have trouble please come to the Ronald McDonald house on Cherry St. And ask for the Newcombs, also please make sure to say PICU and not NICU. Some other good news my cousin Stephanie is home after her surgery and from what I herd is doing well. Well not much more to give you guys right now but keep checking in as I am planning to update the site as information comes. I know we go through life upset and mad because of the problems we face and we feel hopeless and ready to give up. Please hang in there and keep in mind that it is not God's fault but satan's. I encourage you to reach out to God in times of need and reach out to those who do not know Him for that is our jobs as followers of Christ. Life is hard and a good support system is always the best when dealing with problems. That being said, thank you everyone who has come out and supported Baylie and her family. We love you guys and pray for you guys as well. Take care of one another and God bless.

Don Newcomb"

Thanks for keeping Baylie in prayer, she's amazing and so are her parents.

Just an update, you can visit Baylie's website at caring bridge, Don her dad has given an update. They gave her under a 50/50 chance to live and she is defying the odds again. Not completely out of the woods yet but responding to the meds. These guys have really learned 1st hand God's power, grace and mercy.

Now they really need believers to rally around and keep their family in prayer so that Baylie can get the final healing that she deserves and they can all go home and be a normal family. Thank you so much for all your prayers.

Thanks guys, sorry to say but enough is enough and this sucks. God bless this family, they need your hand of grace and mercy.

God is good always.

Thanks guys, sorry to say but enough is enough and this sucks. God bless this family, they need your hand of grace and mercy.

God is good always.

URGENT PRAYER REQUEST FOR BAYLIE. Don & Julie have a new son, Nehemiah born just about a month ago. The family has been doing very well & Baylie was beginning to thrive. Then sometime in the last two weeks she contacted pneumonia (two kinds both lungs). She was flown back to the hospital, with Mom & Dad back home. Dad got there today & Mom, the girls & Nehemiah should be there by Mon/Tues.

Please keep this little fighter in your prayers, she has come thru so much. This is so hard on everyone especially Baylie. Check her site at Caring Bridge to stay updated. Julie is the daughter of two believers in North Carolina, Baylie is their granddaughter.

Thanks for all your prayers. If the link does not work, copy and paste it into your address bar.

http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/baylie

No job update yet but the good news is my son is on his way to India to spend time with believers there. At least his priorities are in the right place so I expect an update on work soon. Thank you all for the prayers. This will be a real spiritual boost for him.

No update but still praying for you.............

Praying...........

Still praying in hope. :)

Thanks Kit, you will be the first to know. This is unbelievable but he is agressively looking right now as there should be many new IT positions coming up. I am trying very hard NOT to be frustrated, God has a plan.

Alfacat, check this out too. I like your wife's quotes from the Word. Better yet buy this book if you can. It will help build believing. This is an excerpt sent to me. Lengthy but we can all learn from it.

(The following is the main section of Dodie Osteen’s testimony, she is the mother of Joel Osteen, a pastor of Lake Wood Church, in Houston, Texas, which demonstrates principles of how you can set your heart to believe and expect any of your desires according to the promise of God shall come to pass. In this case is to believe in healing that God has accomplished in Christ. God will never never fail you; His Word is Life and Health to your soul. Consider not the lies of the enemy but give glory to God who is able and willing to bring to pass what He promised in His Word!

Romans 4:17-21(As it is written, I have made thee a father of many nations,) before him whom he believed, even God, who quickeneth the dead, and calleth those things which be not as though they were.

18 Who against hope believed in hope, that he might become the father of many nations, according to that which was spoken, So shall thy seed be.

19 And being not weak in faith, he considered not his own body now dead, when he was about an hundred years old, neither yet the deadness of Sara's womb:

20 He staggered not at the promise of God through unbelief; but was strong in faith, giving glory to God;

21 And being fully persuaded that, what he had promised, he was able also to perform.

The complete book is available from

Lakewood Church

P.O. Box 23297

Houston, TX 77228, USA

Book no. is ISBN 0-912631-33-3

Healed of Cancer by Dodie Osteen

Chapter 1

Healed of Cancer

I am so thankful to be alive today and to be able to bring you a message of hope! That is what Jesus is, Hope. I feel like the Psalmist David who said, O Lord…I pleaded with you, and you gave me my health again. You brought me back from the brink of the grave, from death itself, and here I am alive? (Psalm 30:2-3, TLB, The Living Bible)

Psalms 30:2 O LORD my God, I cried unto thee, and thou hast healed me.

3 O LORD, thou hast brought up my soul from the grave: thou hast kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit.

The Word of God is extremely important to people who are fighting a battle with their health, for often it’s the only hope they have. I know I would have died if it had not been for the Bible. For many years, I had been taught the truth from God’s Word. I had heard faith messages that built me up. I knew that Jesus didn’t want His children sick and that He not only died for our sins but also for our sicknesses. If it were not for the Word of God, I would not be alive and writing this book.

God said, My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge (Hosea 4:6) This is a sad thing, but it’s true. Many people do not know that it is God’s will for them to be healed and this information is the difference between life and death!

Hosea 4:6 My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge:

In another psalm, David said, How we thank you, Lord! Your mighty miracles give proof that you care (Psalm 75:1, TLB).

God does care for His children. The fact that He healed me shows me He cares, and that He wants to heal you, too.

Psalms 75:1 Unto thee, O God, do we give thanks, unto thee do we give thanks: for that thy name is near thy wondrous works declare.

Hebrews 11:1 says, Now faith is the substance of things HOPED for (emphasis mine). If you have cancer, a kidney disorder, or some other terminal disease that has brought pain and sickness in your body, I want you to know there is hope in Jesus. He does not want you to die an early death. He wants you to live and declare the works of the Lord (see Psalm 118:17)

Hebrews 11:1 Now faith (pistis, believing) is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

Psalms 118:17 I shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the LORD.

I’ve Always Been Healthy and Active

I am the type of person who is busy all the time. I like to work. I have always worked hard and enjoyed it. Our children say, “We have never seen our mother idle. She works all the time. ” My husband, John, often said, “Dodie, it’s time for you to stop working now. You’ve done enough for today.”

I have always been healthy. I had polio when I was a baby, but I do not remember that. I don’t believe during all our married life that John had seen me sick in bed unless I was recuperating from the birth of one of our children. So I was used to excellent health. I was thankful for good health, but I realize now that maybe I took it for granted.

I remember, when somebody would ask, “How are you?” I would reply, “I am disgustingly healthy!” After cancer came upon my body, I realized how foolish those words were.

My days now are precious to me, whereas I used to think they would always be there. Learn not to say idle words. Thank God for your health, and be grateful for every day of life He gives you.

How It All Started

In October 1981, symptoms began to appear in my body. It was at a time when my husband I had so much going for us. Our children were getting older and I was freer than I had been in years. Our youngest child was sixteen years old. I had many plans for the future.

John and I had been invited to be special guests for the opening of the Oral Roberts City of Faith Medical and Research Center in Tulsa, Oklahoma. Our son Paul was a student at the Oral Roberts Medical School at the time, so we were thrilled about being a part of that great celebration.

During the first day, John and I had a wonderful time together, but that night I began to experience symptoms of illness. I felt a bit fuzzy in my mind, and I had chills and a fever. I would be freezing cold, yet burning up with fever. There symptoms got progressively worse for the next three weeks. I was unable to sleep, and when you lose sleep over a long period of time, it does something to you. I became extremely weak. After a few weeks, I became jaundiced and other symptoms and pains began to appear.

During this time, I kept trying to do my house work and take part in all the church services. I especially remember a service when I was so weak that I couldn’t get up. I had knelt down to pray for a lady and when I started to get up, I discovered I couldn’t. I had to crawl over to chair to pull myself up. Nobody knew then, not even me, how sick I really was.

John and I believed and confessed God’s Word. We sought God and agreed together in prayer. I was anointed with oil according to James 5:14-15. I did everything I knew to do. But I got worse.

At the time all this was happening to me, our big Thanksgiving convention at Lakewood Church was coming up, and many plans were being made for that event. I had already bought some new clothes and I was really excited. John and I decided that I should see a doctor and get some help so that I would be well and strong to participate fully.

We called the City of Faith and they recommended a doctor in our own city of Houston. At that time, the City of Faith was not capable of handling too many patients or I would have gone there. That would have been my first choice. However, they had just opened and did not have their facilities up to full capacity yet. I took their counsel and saw a local physician, a wonderful Christian whose specialty is internal medicine.

After examining me, he said, “Mrs. Osteen, I think you should go into the hospital for some tests.” I said, “May I go in as an outpatient? We have a big convention coming up next week.”

He said, “No, I think you will need to have more extensive tests than that.”

I consented to go in the hospital, thinking I would be there for only tow or three days. It turned out to be twenty. I had just about every kind of test there is: several sonograms, two C.T. scans, an upper and lower G.I. series, a bone marrow biopsy, and a uterine biopsy. You name it, I had it!

The doctors’ first diagnosis was that I had a liver abscess, probably caused from some germ picked up on one of our mission trips to Inda. They treated me with a medication which had many side effects, but which they hoped would clear up the abscess. Some of the side effects were nausea and depression. Just being in the hospital was depressing to me, there was so much oppression there. The medicine also made my mind fuzzy and I was unable to think clearly. I became terribly tired and weak. I could hardly get out of bed.

Further test revealed no destructive bacteria, amoebae, or parasites. This, consequently, confounded the first diagnosis, and more sophisticated tests were ordered.

Finally, one day the doctor came into my room and said, “I have sent some blood work to Cincinnati.”

“Why would you do that?” I asked. “There are plenty of excellent hospitals here in Houston.”

He replied, “This is just for my own peace of mind. But I feel sure there is no malignancy in your body.”

Cancer, The sentence of Death! Malignancy!

I was astounded by that word! Up to this time, the possibility of cancer had never entered my mind. For years I had confessed that I would never have cancer or any other disease. When he said that, I thought, This is not what I expected at all. I don’t want the word cancer ever mentioned in my room again. I called John on the telephone and told him what the doctor had said. “ I don’t want you to say the word cancer,” I said, “because I don’t have cancer. I will not have cancer.”

On Thursday, December 10, John came to the hospital to visit me. The doctor met him in the lobby with devastating news. He said, “Pastor, your wife has metastatic cancer of the liver. With or without chemotherapy, she has only a few weeks to live. We can treat her, but it will only slightly prolong her life.

“However, we cannot find the primary tumor,” he said. “We don’t know where it is. In fact, it has really baffled us. Usually a primary tumor signifies the beginning of cancer and then it spreads to the liver or kidneys or some other organ. But we cannot find one. With your consent, we would like to do exploratory surgery or a colonoscopy to try to locate the tumor.”

John couldn’t believe it. He said, “Doctor, I am going to take my wife home. We are going to pray and seek God, and then we will decide what to do. We believe in miracles, and we believe in the Miracle Worker.”

The doctor said, “Well, Pastor, you’re going to have to have a miracle this time.”

When John told me the diagnosis, I was surprised at myself. I was stunned and shocked, but there was no hysteria. I just sat quietly and listened. The doctor came in soon afterwards and we talked.

One thing did upset me, however. Our son Paul, now a medical intern, happened to be doing surgery at Hermann Hospital in Houston, just down the street from the hospital where I was. John called him and said, “Son, come over to the hospital. Mother needs you.” He ran all the way!

Soon I heard this tremendous sobbing out in the hallway. I didn’t know who it was at first. Then I recognized that it was my “little boy,” Paul.

Paul had watched me during the first weeks of my sickness and he was very concerned. Being a medical doctor, he knew the prognosis of a person diagnosed with liver cancer, and it tore him up. Paul knew God could heal, but he had been trained medically to know that a person dies with cancer of the liver. There is usually not much hope.

When Paul came in my room, I said, “Son, we have a battle on our hands. You are going to have to be a fighter with me now.”

He said, “Okay, Mother.” He regained his composure, and he was strong with me throughout the battle.

All my family was supportive and optimistic. I am an only child, and my parents, even though they were elderly, never panicked. They stood strong, like the pillars of strength they have always been. When they heard I was being released from the hospital they were there at the house, ready to care for me and the family.

I Went Home

I went home on December 10, 1981, and I never did go back to the hospital. However, my advice is, if you have cancer and you can be helped by chemotherapy, by all means take it if you feel you should. Do whatever you feel peace about in your heart.

I do not advise anyone to do what I did just because it worked for me. The doctors gave me only a few weeks to live with or without chemotherapy, and I chose not to have it. But God leads and directs each of us individually. This is the way He led me in my faith.

My Faith Had To Take Over Now

While I was in the hospital, I was so weak, and my senses were so dulled by medication, that I depended heavily on other people’s prayers and faith.

I received phone calls from Oral Roberts and Kenneth Hagin. I had calls from Kenneth Copeland and Daisy and T.L. Osborn. Daisy even came to visit me at the hospital. Most of all, I depended on my husband. I was married 44 years to a great teacher of the Word of God, and he constantly encouraged me and spoke the Word to me. I also relied on the people of Lakewood Church who were praying and fasting for me. Other people’s prayers had to “carry” me during this time.

It was soon after I came home, however, that I realized my healing was a personal matter between me, God and Jesus Christ.

One night, in the early hours of the morning, God spoke to my heart; “It is not your husband’s faith; it is not Oral Roberts’ faith; it is not Kenneth Hagin’s faith; it is YOUR faith that you must go on now. ” I knew it was between me, God and Jesus from that time on.

This was a different situation than when our daughter Lisa was born with cerebral palsy. (An account of Lisa’s miracle is told in There Is a Miracle in Your Mouth, by John Osteen.) Lisa is grown an perfectly normal now. John and I both believed God for her healing even though we did not have much knowledge of the Word of God then. She was a baby and, of course, unable to believe God for herself. She was healed by our faith in God and His great mercy.

The Fight of Faith

Once I arrived home, I never did go to bed to be cared for by others. I felt that if I did, I would demonstrate unbelief and undermine my faith. I went to bed only at night during normal sleeping hours. I wouldn’t even take a nap, because I knew if I did, I would stay there, for I felt so sick.

My first morning home I got up, bathed and put on a dress that now swallowed my 89-pound frame. I was not going to act sick.

John and I believed in the power of the prayer of agreement. Jesus said, If two of you agree on earth concerning anything that they ask, it will be done for them by My Father in heaven (Matthew 18:19)

The day after I came home from the hospital, I asked John to pray with me. I said, “Darling, you are the head of this house. You are going to have to take authority over this cancer in my body. We must agree that God is going to heal me and make me whole.”

So we did. John anointed me with oil as we both got on the floor in our bedroom, face down before God, and he took authority over any disease and over any cancerous cells in my body.

That was December 11, 1981. As far as I’m concerned, that’s the day my healing began. I had the confidence in God’s Word that I was healed, but my body did not completely line up with that truth. I still had many symptoms, and I still felt ill, but in my heart I knew I was healed!

It took a long time for the symptoms to go. Many times I felt like saying, “Jesus, it would be so much easier just to give up the fight and go on to be with you. ” Instead, though, I had to fight. I read Isaiah 43:25, 26, which says, I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions for my own sake; and I will not remember your sins. Put me in remembrance; let us contend together; state your case, that you may be acquitted.

In the middle of the night, when everybody else was asleep, I pled my case with God & Jesus. I said, “God, I don’t want t die. I am too young to die. You said that we can choose life or death, and I don’t choose to die. I will not die, but live and declare the works of the Lord” (see Psalm 118:17)

I reminded the Lord that my husband needed me, my children needed me, my flock needed me, my mother and daddy needed me, and HE needed me. I examined my heart, and God began to deal with me about some things. One night I wrote letters to seven people whom I felt I might have offended, whom I needed to forgive or who needed to forgive me. I even wrote letters to people I thought I might have offended after I became sick because I had been so irritable. I hadn’t been myself. One letter was to my husband, and others were to each of my children.

I did everything I knew to do that would help me have a positive, hopeful attitude. I placed a picture of me in my wedding dress by my bed. I would pray, Oh, Lord, if I could just feel like I did on my wedding day! I also put out a picture of me riding a horse when we were vacationing at a ranch. I was the picture of health. I thought, Oh, God, If I could just ride a horse again!

Another thing that was good for me was going out and praying for others.

James 5:16 says, Pray for one another, that you may be healed.

When you are fighting a battle, if you will give out of your need, God will cause your answer to come to you quicker.

Luke 6:38 says, Give and it will be given to you.

When you get your mind so much on yourself and your own need, you begin to weaken. I was so sick that I did not feel like going out. When I was in the house alone, I thought about myself, the pain, sickness, and symptoms, and I would get weary and full of pity. But when I forced myself to go out and pray for someone else, my health began to come back to me. I remember one time I drove across town a long way from our house to pray for somebody in the hospital. After visiting that person, God impressed me to go by another home where the man had been sick a long time. I was so tired! I did not fell like going at all, but I went. I almost dropped from exhaustion. The point is that I felt in my own heart that I had been obedient to God.

The Word Became My life

In spite of every discouraging symptoms, my heart knew that God’s Word could not lie. I had confidence in God’s Word. If I hadn’t, I would have died.

Hebrews 10:23 says, Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful.

Day by day, I gained hope and encouragement from the precious promises that God revealed to me through His Word. I clung to my Bible and its healing promises. The Word became my life. I read and confessed the Scriptures daily.

There were days, however, when I wavered in my faith, and I would feel great condemnation. My confession of faith had not changed, but it seemed like I was wavering. I think anybody who fights a long babble with sickness will waver some if symptoms persist.

It wasn’t until I talked this over with my husband that I realized the wavering was in my head, not my heart. I said, “John, what is wrong with me?” I feel so condemned because I am wavering.”

John knew just what to say. He asked, “Dodie, are you wavering in your heart?”

I said, “No. I know God’s Word wouldn’t lie to me. It’s true.”

“Then where are you wavering?”

I considered his question, then replied, “In my head!”

“Well,” John said, “don’t you see? That’s the difference. You are not wavering in your heart, because you know God’s Word is true. There is no need for you to be condemned. Your heart is established. Resist the thoughts from the devil, and he will flee from you.”

That helped me so much! I had confidence in my heart, but the devil was using my thoughts to cause me to doubt. I had faith in my heart, but doubt in my mind.

If you are having symptoms of your sickness and you seem to be wavering, check your spirit. You are probably not wavering in your heart. Doubt is from your head. Don’t let the devil condemn you.

How I fought Fear

People often ask me if I struggled with fear. Oh, how I battled with fear! When I was strong in my body, I never felt fear, but when I was weak and sick, fear would overwhelm me.

I want to be honest with you. I am the wife of a pastor and faith teacher, but first of all, I am a human being. I have thoughts and feeling s just like anyone else. I had to cast down imaginations. I laughed at symptoms.

I am a registered nurse. I understood how my body was supposed to function, and I understood that it wasn’t functioning properly. Certain things that doctors had said now brought fear to my heart. Those were the thoughts I had to fight against most, and I still have to resist them sometimes.

Satan would torment me with the doctor’s words, “You have only a few weeks to live…few weeks to live…few weeks to live. ” He would use pain and then say, “You’re going to die. Have your family bury you in that pretty dress. You look good in it.”

But I would replace those thoughts with God’s Word and say, “With long life will He satisfy me, and show me His salvation” (see Psalm 91:15-16). The devil bombarded my mind with every kind of fear imaginable, especially when everybody was asleep and I lay awake hurting. Pain, intense, unbearable pain, came against my body, most of it demonic, just to try my faith.

Psalms 91:15 He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honour him.

16 With long life will I satisfy him, and shew him my salvation.

I fought so hard in the middle of the night! This is when the devil’s thought would play on my mind. Many nights I would lie awake and pray continually and rebuke the spirit of fear. I felt like I had battle fatigue, but I kept on pushing and fighting.

In order to keep my mind from drifting to the negative, I would walk around, saying with every step, “By the stripes of Jesus, I am healed…by the stripes of Jesus, I am healed” (see 1 Peter 2:24).

Peter 2:24 Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed.

I would meditate on scriptures like,

It is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure (Philippians 2:13).

The Word of God would always encourage me and make me feel better, but the devil challenged every step of faith I took. Each time I quoted Scripture, he would say, “It hasn’t done you one bit of good to confess the Word of God, has it? ” He would question every promise of God.

I quoted scripture after scripture. (See Chapter 2 for a list of the scriptures I used most.) Daily, as I used God’s Word, I became stronger and stronger.

Is Tormenting Fear Normal for a Christians?

I was once asked, “Is this fear a normal thing for a Spirit-filled Christian?” I do not know what you consider normal. I am just telling you what I went through. Don’t be critical of people unless you walk in their shoes. If you don’t think they have a much faith as you do, don’t be critical of them. Try to realize what they are going through. No matter how much you know, you still do not know all they are facing. I have been critical of others in the past. I am ashamed because now I know what I went through.

God Did Not Give Me Cancer Did God send this sickness on me?

NO, of course not. Both my heart and my mind knew it was not God’s will for me or any of His children to be sick.

If I’d had any doubt in my mind about it being God’s will for me to be well, I would never have gotten well. That is why we need to fight the lies of the devil. That is why we need to teach people God’s Word. Get it clearly established in your mind and heart that it IS God’s will for you to be well.

God did not put cancer on me. Jesus said it was “the thief,” Satan, who came to steal my health, kill me, and destroy me. Jesus said, I am come that [you] might have life, and that [you] might have it more abundantly (John 10:10, KJV). Notice, that verse says that you “might” have life. You have a choice. You do not have to have abundant life, but you CAN if you want to. I wanted to, so I pled my case with God.

John 10:10 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

People Everywhere Prayed For Me

Everyone was so good! I wasn’t physically able to travel anywhere to have people pray for me. I asked God to send people to pray for me in my own home. And they began to come. Many people came from great distances. I remember one lady flew to Houston from across the nation to pray for me and tell me how God had healed her of cancer. Our entire church stood with us and interceded. They helped us in innumerable ways. Everyone encouraged me, especially my family.

I want to encourage husbands and wives and children to stay close together, because you need each other, especially when a crisis comes. My husband and my children would say to me every day, “You are healed.”

It means so much to have somebody close to you stand with you in prayer when you are fighting a disease. John stood with me and encouraged me. He saw me crying and hurting when nobody else knew it.

Some days I didn’t feel like doing anything but cry. He would tell me over and over, “Sweetheart, you’re going to get well. WE are going to go all over the world together. We’re going to do things for Jesus Christ. You’re a good soldier. God and Jesus have confidence in you. Our best days are ahead.”

He would hold my hand and pray in the Spirit. He would seek God, and God would show him things in the Word which he would share with me. When my faith seemed to weaken, it would always be lifted by something John would say or by some special way the Lord would speak to my heart. John encouraged me and increased my faith in any and every way He could.

A Visitation From the Lord

One day we had a special visitation from the Lord in our bedroom. I believe an angel actually came to strengthen us.

We had come home from a church service and John went to the bedroom to hang up his coat. He walked through the door and noticed his Bible open on the bed where he had left it earlier that day. As he turned around, he heard someone turning the pages of his Bible. There was no draft or wind coming into the room from any direction.

When he looked closely, a page was supernaturally turned under on one edge and

Psalm 105:37 was quickened to him on that page. He brought then forth also with silver and gold: and there was not one feeble person among their tribes (KJV)

My Family Treated Me As If I Were Well

My children treated me as if I were a normal, healthy mother. From the time John and I prayed, they believed that I was healed. Sometimes there were things in the house that needed to be done, which I would ask them to do. But because they believed I was healed, they insisted that I could do them.

It is a good thing they treated me as if I were healed; otherwise, many times I would have been tempted to have pity parties. They would not allow me to feel sorry for myself. They reminded me of the Word of God and of the prayer of faith we had prayed.

One time I wanted a piece of furniture moved to another place in the room. It was a small article that I normally could have moved. When I asked for help, one of them said, “Mother, you are healed. You can do it. ” And I could! It was difficult, but it made me use my faith. This irritated me then. But, to my children, I was healed. I thank God they have been grounded in the Word of God.

Don’t sit around and feel sorry for yourself when you are fight the battle for your healing. Pity never wins! I over came my pity parties by speaking to my body and commanding it to come in line with the Word of God. And t did!

Confirming My Miracle

People are always asking me if I have been back to the doctor to confirm my healing. I once received a letter from a doctor’s sister asking, “Has this healing been documented?”

If by “documentation” people mean did I go back to the same doctors and have the same tests run again, no, I haven’t. However, over the years I have been examined by other doctors for other medical reasons, and they have confirmed my healing.

(See Chapter 3.)

I never felt peace about going back to the hospital for tests to prove I was healed. You might think that is strange. But I didn’t want anything disturbing my faith. I know that I am healed. I left the hospital December 10, 1981, and today I am still alive, full of energy, and very active many years longer than the few weeks the doctors gave me to live back in 1981. The fact that I am still living is a pretty good indication that the Word of God works!

Some time after I left the hospital, I decided to go to a gynecologist for a checkup. Only John and I know all the things that came against my body to try our faith. One of them was abnormal bleeding accompanied by severe pain in the abdomen. So I made an appointment with Dr. Richard W. Walker, Jr., a fine Christian gynecologist who attends Lakewood Church. He knew of my condition and what I’d been through.

Since the doctors at the hospital had not found a primary tumor, the devil had tormented me for months with the fear that I had a amalignant cyst or tumor growing in my body. My former gynecologist had diagnosed a small fibroid tumor on the wall of my uterus several years before. These tumors are usually benign, and, because it was small, he recommended that nothing be done.

However, the physicians in the hospital had suggested this might be the site of the primary tumor.

John and I prayed all the way to Dr. Walker’s office. His examination showed that indeed the fibroid tumor had grown. It was now the size of a golf ball, and he recommended a hysterectomy to remove my uterus.

I battled whether to have the surgery or not, but finally consented. Examination under anesthesia immediately before surgery revealed the golf ball-sized mass on the wall of my uterus. After surgery, when the pathologist ran the necessary tests for his report, no tumor could be found. It was a miracle! Today, Dr. Walker reports I am as healthy as a young woman!

Then in November 1983, a full two years after receiving my death sentence of cancer, I felt I should have some blood work done because my blood count had been so low in the hospital. I went to Dr. Reginald B. Cherry, a doctor of preventive medicine who is also a member of our church. He is a wonderful man, saved and filled with the holy spirit. He has always been an encourager and an uplifter to me.

The test result confirmed that God had performed a miracle! The blood work was normal. And seven liver function tests were completely normal. No cancer! Glory to God!

Jesus hasn’t changed. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever (see Hebrews 13:8). His healing power is available today for you also.

Hebrews 13:8 Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever.

Nahum 1:7 says, The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble; and He knows those who trust [take refuge] in Him.

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f you are suffering today, if there is something wrong in your body, I want you to know there is still hope in Jesus.

How I used the Scriptures to be Healed

The Word of God saved my life. Every day I would read many scriptures.

Proverbs 4:20-22 says, My son, give attention to my words; incline your ear to my sayings. Do not let them depart from your eyes; keep them in the midst of your heart; for they are life to those who find them, and health to all their flesh.

To this day, I never leave my home without reading healing

scriptures. I know them by heart, but I still look them up and read them. It does something for me.

During my morning quiet time I look at healing scriptures. I don’t let them depart from my eyes, keeping them in the midst of my heart, because they have been life and health to me.

The thing I want you to understand is what helped me the most, an unshakable confidence in the Word of God. I knew that if I wasn’t getting better it was not God’s fault, because God’s Word doesn’t fail.

You need to make this same decision. Some people get bitter at God when something comes against them, or they don’t get well. God is not your enemy! He will keep you alive. It is the devil who wants to destroy you (see John 10:10). Don’t get bitter or angry at God. Fight the devil. God wants you well.

You CAN have life abundantly if you want to, but you have to know that it is God’s will for you to be healed. Some people who have not studied what the Bible says about healing do not believe it is God’s will for them to be healed. They think they must suffer for Jesus. They think that God is teaching them a lesson.

God does not teach His children lessons by making them sick. You don’t teach your child a lesson by pushing him in front of a car! God is a loving Father who wants His children well and happy.

One of the scriptures that I read every day was Jeremiah 30:17: I will restore

Jeremiah 30:17 For I will restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy wounds, saith the LORD; because they called thee an Outcast, saying, This is Zion, whom no man seeketh after.

There were times I felt as if I was going though a dark tunnel. There seemed to be no end to it, and yet I still confessed, “I am healed”.

When anybody would ask me how I felt, I never confessed that I felt bad. I said, “I am blessed of the Lord.” I did not tell a lie.

Confession did not seem to work for me for quite a while, but it finally did work! I began to see a faint ray of light. And, oh, what a wonderful day it was when I saw the bright light of God’s healing power!

If you are believing God for something, watch what comes out of your mouth. Keep on confessing the Word of God, and God will honor His Word.

I want you to believe that there is hope in Jesus. I am a person who has been healed of cancer. I am not anybody special. I am one of God’s children just like you are, God wants to help you. He wants you to live. He wants you to live a long, healthy, productive life. But your healing doesn’t just automatically happen. You must fight your sickness with God’s Word and your faith.

Doctors say it is a well-known fact that a feisty person, a fighter, can overcome disease and sickness better than a passive person. There is something in the immune system that goes to work for you when you become a fighter.

Make up your mind that you do not want to die. Plead your case with God. If you have any unforgiveness in your heart, if you have anything in your life that is not pleasing to God, turn away from it. Release it to Jesus Christ. Give your case to God,

(1 Peter 5:7).Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you

Alfacat no matter what God is never late........Just keep your heart on the word. Hugs & Prayer going out to you. Like you said you have a lot to live for.

The family of Bailey Newcomb is believing for a van. Please join us as we see how much God can do. This van needs to accomodate all of Baylies "things". Thanks all for checking in on Bailey!

No answer yet, please keep this in prayer.

Love her and bring her up to the level of the Word. God is not finished in her life yet Raf, don't give up on Him. Tears can be healing too.

Still praying here too!

Thank you Lord for more and more miracles for this family every day............Big ones!

God is still bigger than anything that hits us, so we believe his Word and pray for your sister Raf. :) Happier days are still ahead.