I lost what I thought were friends, but what hurt the most was losing my sister, her husband and their children. That was in 2000 and she still won't talk to me. I was marked and avoided for questioning my leadership. I have moved on and I always keep my door open. Like sending christmas cards and such.
My life is wonderful and free now. I can't let them hold me down. If that's how they want to be then so be it. I think God will work out what's best in his good time. Don't get me wrong it took me a very long time to get to this peaceful point in my life. I went at least a year of crying everyday. Somtimes I had to pull over on the side of the road when I was driving because I was crying so hard. I even had to go on meds to help me deal with my loss.
I also made sure I sought out spiritual healing from normal and loving people and they taught me how to forgive.