southern gentleman

I have been a lurker for many years now and can't express the graditude I have for these websites. I was in free fall from the divorce from the ministry that I was active in for nineteen years. I am explaiining this on the 11th Corps site because I am a graduate of it and hold all those in high esteem that I graduated with. My graditude doesn't stop there because I would still be messed up from the worlds fate had I not taken PFAL. Now,before you all jump on that let me say I had no exposure to the Bible before taking the calss so I was starving for answers to why bad things had happened to me-a fairly good person. My track thru the minisry was in the healing arts and I did the whole gamut, working third-aid at the rock,Corps,interm year with Dr.R.,the whole ball of wax. I was there for the LEAD mess and was at the airport to gather those poor souls back to some loving arms. The true spiritual leaders were not those leading but those who stayed faithful to working and loving,the two reasons I see why God wanted children at all, all else gets you puffed up. All this may sound very simplistic but that is how I have tried to keep my relationship with God pure. Oh,by the way Iam southern gentlemans wife,I am not too computer literate and will someday figure how to get my own name on here. I have stared this post probably twenty times but today was the day.gotta go,am going shopping with some friends.

What can a man say except if you do not proof your typing then it may not come out exactly like you wanted it to be expressed. Thank you for the mint julip even though I do not care for them I am more a Crown and Diet Coke person these days. For those of you who are wondering where I live and who I am. Well the state of Mississippi is where I hail from and we have just survived Katrina. I never have posted on any forum or entered a chat room because I felt things were going along very well.....until a wind came up and help me to keep life in perspective and thankful to be alive and have my family, home, and neighbors. Our area looks like a war zone and slowly we are cleaning up an getting life back together. We now have 20,000 more people living in our city of just over 100,000. Now my abiltiy to love someone unconditionally because I am love by God, to give from the heart because I need to and without a price tag, and to hold human life as something very special has given me a since of purpose over these last 6 weeks. Then when I got to greasspot and saw the anquish, heartbreak, hurt from leaders toward "plain joe belivers", and the venom that was being spewed about the wrongs that were done. Guess it made me think about what happened 18 years ago, how was I affected, what did I learn, why did I never stop loving God, and glad I got beyond the hurt and humiliation some of those in "leadership" postions showed toward me. I am not a philospher but boy does this sound like one. I am a man who loves God and what Jesus Christ did for me,,,,,remember what he delivered me from the fear, pride, self-loathing, and remembering what he brought to me a more abundant life full of giving, caring, and the hope of his return. Now I give freely to my family of my heart, to love my wife for standing with and by me through every issue we have faced, and desire for my son to be the best he can (which he is doing). I feel terrible that so many people where crushed emotionally, scared for life, and sent packing with total humilation. Thanks for allowing me somewhere to tell you that there are others out here who only want people to get healed and to move forward with their lives. Please feel free to correct my english and correct the terms I do not know. Like the code is TWI or LCM or whatever!

I have been reading many different formus of those of us who are looking for someone that we knew or about someone who hurt us. It is just a small price to pay for the heartache that it took to give up the thing you grew to love----the fellowship with others, the feeling of really belonging, and the hope you were doing something great for yourself and others. No matter how many wrong things that TWI did or leaders that were egotistical and of course the wrong doctrine slipped in here and there you still feel like a part of your life was ripped away from you and a real bad divorce occurred. I choose to think that there was some great doctrine taught that was against main stream religion and should be look into an studied more closely to find it true merritt and what it can achieve for Christians today. I know that many wrong doctrines were taught so that ego's could be swelled with pride. I am grateful I got out before "gm" could apply his legalism doctrines. I am appaulded that his wife and children have not backed up an moved on with their lives instead of living in a fine home in the woods. It is sicking to have people arrested just because the want to pay their repects to those who helped them. For my own personal life not one person has looked my wife or I up to see how we are as people since having to leave an organization where men use there penis to rule over people. I am thankful we have stayed together all these years and openly communicate our feelings so that we can stand together and raise our son to be a wonderful man. I feel very sorry for those who the venom of satan has ruined your relationship with God and I pray that you find peace and are able to forgive and move on. Well I started this forum with the hope that we could share joy and rejoycing with one another of the good affect that the time spent in TWI got us. The joy, harmony, love, peace, and fellowship with God it has brought us. My time spent as a WOW (3 times) and in the corps (13) was not one where I was brought to the front and lauded as a great example of a beliver. I do remember men and women who were done this way some good results, some bad. I am thankful that for whatever reason I could just be a believer and learn to love myself and begin my family and enjoy those who wanted to belive the Word of God was the truth and do the best I could for God. If this inspires you to comment share with us your results since TWI how God has blessed your life, how you have helped others, and how you are moving on.

Just want to know where some of the everyday believers are that help me along the way, and on the way out. Not one of them very famous just great people. Like Earl & Deb Schenheit, Jane Stokes, Nancy Kegley, Randy Newsome, to name a few?