Seth

I'm so egocentric I'm the ultimate thread killer. And just to prove it....

This thread is now dead!

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Seth Rosen

"I believe that on the whole, Preparation 'H' feels good." ~~~ Dr. Evil

Hey Robi, how many Aquarians does it take to flood The Greasespot Cafe?

One, but since we are all rebels and like to join in the fun all the aquarians will add there couple gallons to the pool. LOL!

Happy Birthday!

Seth

"I believe that on the whole, Preparation 'H' feels good." ~~~ Dr. Evil

wow, neat. Thanks!

Let's see, Ronald Reagan, Bob Marley, Shellon North, I'm in good company.

34 years and still counting.

Wheeee!

Seth "aeroseth" Rosen

From: Parts unknown

"I believe that on the whole, Preparation 'H' feels good." ~~~ Dr. Evil

I'm on the road, homeless, but I'm living house to house. Hopefully I'll have a room in a halfway house soon.

The prozac is working great, I'm hopefull and happy even though I have no money a duffle bag a backpack and an over-night bag with a weeks worth of clothes and my recovery literature.

Living in prayer, meditation and action.

The God of my understanding has me, I am safe.

BTW, almost all of my TWI literature is now at the dump, got tired of waiting for someone to ask me for it, so it's gone, tapes, books, magazines.

Seth

"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

Hey folks, I'm hopefully going to start working for a vending machine division of a big coin-op company fixing and maintaining their vending machines. It's something I like to do and I probably will be great at it.

My depression is getting less everyday, but some days I just don't know what to do. I'm tired of talking about my problems, when there is preciouslittle help, unless you have money, and wheels. Soon I'll have money and wheels, but not soon enough.

I'm done running, the fight is over.

Seth

"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

sorry Dot

"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

Or a TWI Haiku...

The Word, the Word, nothing...

but where are you going with,

my money? The Bank...

I have no friends when,

I plagiarise, I tell lies,

It comes to God's word.

P-F-A-L Swell,

Go tell your deliverance,

big fish story!

Unity of the,

Present truth, myths and legends.

In bondage of peace.

Enter ye in at,

Shop at Legalism-R-US

the straight gate. No gays...

Seth

"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

OK New Joisey, whatever, da garden state, u know wat i mean?

Give us the low down, the 411, u know wat i mean?

So tellz me dez tree tings, OK?

1) What exit?

2) Where's the best hoagie in your town? (near dat exit)

3) Where's all da hot chicks, or babes go? (if your a chick or a babe then tell the other chicks or babes where the dudes, dawgs, or guys go?)

OK? Whatever, u know what i mean?

Seth "i really don't tawk like dat, yeah, right!"

"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

Thanks everyone, Ginger Tea, Excathedra, Kay1952, Masterherbalist, Hope R., Doggiepapa, Zixar, ChasUFarley, itchley, pausonne, corrydj, AdiosMiCorazon, Freebird, Krysilis, Waygone, Plotinus, LiftedUp, NKNative,

Sheesh some of you folks have hard friggin' nicknames! Any way, here are some of the details.

First I'm not moving, nope, too stressfull and too much uncertainty. (pardon the spelling and grammar)

Second I'm on meds Prozac, it works and I'm getting the effects, not the full effects but enough to keep me from buying a box of shotgun shells and blowing my head off.

Third I'm in counseling, and will continue with it untill my therapist says.

Fourth I'm looking at getting some humble work to pay the bills, I don't need to be rich, famous or good looking. All I want is food clothing and shelter.

Fifth I'm looking forward to my anniversary on the 23rd of Sept. 2 years sober. (Hmmm No pun intended. LOL only an ex-drunk might get this.)

BTW, Dot Matrix I'm not Bipolar, I'm a unipolar depressive, so my "cycle" is from average mood to depressed, and I don't hit manic, I wish I did maybe I'd get something done. So I cycle every 3 months and it's all depressive and it varies from week to week when I'm in a cycle, like friday is my worst day of the week in my down cycle. My cycles are Oct, Jan, Apr, July. July being my worst month of the year, and every year is worse then the last. The best years were my teen pre highschool years when I went to summer camp. Except the last year when I went on teen travel camp, I hated it, I had no idea I was so depressed untill I looked back at it.

I'm getting tired I need to close this, I'm feeling better, except for the side effects of the prozac, but the side effects are managable.

Thanks again,

Seth

"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

If you guys need someone who plays blues harp I know a guy, his friends thinks he's really good and should be in a band, but he's not in a band. He loves Jr. Wells, and Howlin' Wolf's harmonica licks, and he's been known to play some early Led Zepplin licks as well as some Beatles tunes. At times he get's a little wild with old Army bugle calls, but it's all in fun. His goal in life is to be able to play Jimi Hendrix lead part of "Red House" completely on blues harp, one of these days he will.

Seth

"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

I'm still not done packing, I hit another downer in my depression which put me in bed for 16 hours or so. I'm dragging my butt out to visit some friends.

I think I'm going to start smoking again, what's a good brand these days? My friend started smoking Camel Jasmine's I wonder what they're like? Well there's always Kool unfiltered...

Seth

"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

Well, I'm tired, and praying for a manic episode or at least a break in the blues. I got close today, but my suicidal ideation comes and goes.

If the lead ever fell out of my *** I think NASA could get rid of those solid rocket boosters for the space shuttle, because I could launch the thing with my own power. But I guess this is just how it's going to be.

Reality sucks.

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Seth

"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

Well I was born the same day as Ronald Reagan, and a few other famous folks. I also was born in Fort Wayne Indiana home of WLOK the radio station Tricky Vic broadcast his Vain Jangling or was that Chimes Hour Youth Caravan?

I'm formulating a plan of action and I'll be having a place to go in a few weeks.

If anyone wants to help me, I'm designing a web site for someone right now, and that's something I do well. If you know someone who needs web design services I do good design for fair prices. Some of my designs,

http://www.aerosmith-concert-tickets.com

http://www.cher-concert-tickets.com

http://www.lenny-kravitz-concert-tickets.com

http://www.rolling-stones-concert-tickets.net/

http://www.rush-concert-tickets.com/

These are simply designs that were geared towards getting the sites up and running quickly with a good clean layout. My focus is on Graphics, layout, and making the site search engine friendly. I don't deal much with content so I rely on my customer giving me the words they want to say on the site.

Thanks,

Seth

quote:

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Originally posted by Waygone:

Hey Seth -

Wow - what an interesting happenstance -- I was born February 5, 1969!! Too Cool!

If you need anything please email me - I mean we are practically related our birthdays are so close!! Waygone256@yahoo.com

Waygone

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"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

Thanks folks, I'm too tired and skattered to really think I might make sence in this post, so I'm just going to let it fly, typos and all.

I'm not sure I believe the recent events are new in my life, because I've done some meditaion on it and it's been a cycle. This cycle first appeared in my memory when I was in grade school. I believe I have a permenent chemical imbalance that causes my depression, and it's progressive and cumulative. Sure diet helps, sure therapy helps, sure medication helps; but one dip one blip, and I'm out of wack. I take my meds every day, but it's to early for them to work.

I have no plans to hurt myself, or anyone else. I'm looking for a peaceful resolution to this internal conflict. I'm very tired, it's not over, I just am not clear, and I can't see the solution.

I'm tired of being sick.

Seth

"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

Hi folks, I want to let you all in on a problem I've been facing for the last few months. Depression, yes and what ever TWI called it "mental-pressure" "sullen-spirit" "heavy and gloomy spirits" I think I've had depression all my life. I can trace it back all the way to grade school, and it's getting worse every year.

I'm only now beginning to face the fact that with out treatment and therapy I will not be a free person.

I'm bringing this up because there might be folks who have depression and are affraid of being labeled, I was and it's just a cult planted phobia. Depression is treatable and we don't have to suffer with it.

The other reason I bring this up is that because of my depression I get really anti-social at times, and it's a symptom of depression in men to be angry, and sometimes I lash out. I'm sorry for offending anyone.

I've been very sick this year, and I've kept it to myself, well it's going to result in me losing the apartment I'm living in now. I'm in very bad financial shape, and it's not looking good. I'm resigned to the fact that I might never be independant again, who knows what's going to happen to me.

I have to move out of the apartment I'm currently living in by August 23rd. I don't have any place to go at this point, and because of my state of mind I don't really care.

I have my meds, and I'm taking them, but it will be a few more weeks before they start working. I have some therapy appointments and I'll be going to them.

I'm slipping away and it seems that lately everything I do fails, everything I ever wanted in life is a very distant and impossable myth.

I've contacted some agencies and it seems that unless I have 2 pints less blood in my body then normal they don't want to talk to me. I don't want to have to do anything radical, but it seems like life is going to become very hard for me in the next 12 days.

I'll keep everyone posted on my progress, who knows I might have to sign-off indefinitly...

Seth

"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

What I want to know is how can you tell these folks are Hindus? They could be Muslim, or Atheist for all we know. Where's the proof other then what they look like?

Seth

"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

Crying is good for the soul, and the brain.

My therapist said that there are amino acids released when we cry that have a cleansing effect on the brain, losening up junk that was getting sticky so-to-speak.

I like to cry, but I don't go out of my way, and like everyother anal problem I had from TWI letting myself go is very hard, but it happens sometimes and usually there's people around. (which sucks sometimes)

So much for becoming my childhood hero, Star Trek's Mr. Spock. He did cry a few times, but they were all during mind-melds with emotional beings.

Naa-Noo, Naa-Noo, This is Mork calling Orson, come in Orson...

Seth

"Why you be here four hour? You go NOW!"

What was it Will Rogers wrote? "Politicians wanted: No experiance necesary." I feel the same way about abusive groups. "Cult leaders wanted: No ounce of humanity needed" sheesh!

So what is this Paw a Political Cult discussion forum? Well let's start with the Democrats, oh wait let's start with the republicans, or ummm how about the Unitarians, wait there's the Green party (home of "Grandpa" Al Lewis), oh rats I'll be up all night trying to decide!!

L8r,

Seth

Yeah, right!