I’m still reluctant to read the Bible. I don’t trust my own conclusions because I still don’t know how much of what I think is Waybrain, what is right or wrong. I prefer to stay away from doctrinal stuff and stick to inspirational or comforting things.
I’ve started going to church recently. The people there are nice. The sermon was on the parables about being lost then found (the shepherd leaving the 99 to look for the lost sheep). At first I didn’t like it. It felt intellectual and left me feeling hungry still.
But as I think about it, I realize in a great sense I have been lost. Not in the sense of being born again, but in the sense of no spiritual direction. I don’t know where the road is. I used to think I did. Was I ever on it? I don’t think so. So maybe he hit the mark after all.
I still have many questions and few answers. I still have no idea how to approach life on a day to day basis from a spiritual perspective.
I have had 2 months from hell. If it could go wrong, it has. If it was mechanical it broke. My business is failing. I have had numerous people come to my store and say negative things like, “I never see any cars in your parking lot. Are you doing OK?” I still owe $26,000 on it….It honestly feels like the devil has settled a big cloud on my business. Like a wall of defeat. Anything to stress me out or make me feel bad. Every day is a fight to keep my attitude up. And right now when I really need answers, I don’t have them. I don’t know what to do. Reading about the spiritual battle just makes me tired and think of TWI.....I would appreciate prayers. Anyone else been here? How did you get out?
It's been seven years....
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It’s been seven years…
I’m still reluctant to read the Bible. I don’t trust my own conclusions because I still don’t know how much of what I think is Waybrain, what is right or wrong. I prefer to stay away from doctrinal stuff and stick to inspirational or comforting things.
I’ve started going to church recently. The people there are nice. The sermon was on the parables about being lost then found (the shepherd leaving the 99 to look for the lost sheep). At first I didn’t like it. It felt intellectual and left me feeling hungry still.
But as I think about it, I realize in a great sense I have been lost. Not in the sense of being born again, but in the sense of no spiritual direction. I don’t know where the road is. I used to think I did. Was I ever on it? I don’t think so. So maybe he hit the mark after all.
I still have many questions and few answers. I still have no idea how to approach life on a day to day basis from a spiritual perspective.
I have had 2 months from hell. If it could go wrong, it has. If it was mechanical it broke. My business is failing. I have had numerous people come to my store and say negative things like, “I never see any cars in your parking lot. Are you doing OK?” I still owe $26,000 on it….It honestly feels like the devil has settled a big cloud on my business. Like a wall of defeat. Anything to stress me out or make me feel bad. Every day is a fight to keep my attitude up. And right now when I really need answers, I don’t have them. I don’t know what to do. Reading about the spiritual battle just makes me tired and think of TWI.....I would appreciate prayers. Anyone else been here? How did you get out?