Dot Matrix

We just saw the movie Fraility. Written by Bill Paxton who also stars in it. It was VERY disturbing on a couple levels. It is about this man who has two sons, his wife died giving birth to the yougest, so the family consisted of the three guys. Then, one day the father hears god tell him that they are all going to serve him (god) as demon fighters. (At this point, I can see Craig. ) The father then brings home PEOPLE whose names god gave him to destroy because they are not people but demons inside. (I am thinking about the M&A and homopurge period) So, the father brings home these PEOPLE and is convinced they are demons and he forces his boys to be with him as he hacks them to death with an axe. (I am thinking of the homo letter John R. posted "I could kill you.") One son, Fenton, KNOWS this is wrong and goes to the police to report his Dad but they do not believe him. (how many of you went to various leadership to try and FIX the ministry because things were not right.) Fenton gets punished because he tried to convince his father this cannot be God's will. He is placed in a basement for weeks and not fed. While his brother who agrees with the father has the father's attention and praise. (We all have examples of this crap) Anyway -- it blew my mind how this guy gets tricked by the devil into killing people thinking he is doing God's will. The son who knows it is wrong wants to leave but stays to try and protect the younger brother... (we all stayed when we knew to leave) If anyone has not seen this movie (a little creepy with the killings) I found it interesting on how tricked the father (leader of the family) became and the similarities to our own entanglement. You may want to see it. If you did see it -- what do you think? Dot Matrix [This message was edited by Dot Matrix on July 08, 2002 at 6:55.]

On a 1 to 5 smile ranking, 5 being the best. We gave: Minority Report 1/2 (Made me think of Weirwille's warning about fortune tellers/ precog's) Bourne Idenity 1/2 (Kept interest all the way thorugh -- met the first rule of good writing "make me care" we did care about the characters) Spider Man (suprisingly delightful!) The sum of all fears 1/2 (talking heads not enough action) Mothman prophesies 1/2 (Based on a true story!!!) D tox (too dark, did not met the first rule of good writing "make me care" I didn't care if they all died) Life or Something Like it 1/2 (Charming. Angelina Jolie does a great job!) Mr Deeds 1/2 (Cute movie! Wynonia Wyder (spelling) does such a good job I almost forgave her for shoplifting) Changing Lanes This is one of those unusual movies as there is no bad guy. Just two half way decent guys that get into an altercation (result of accident) and wind up messing up each other's lives. Dot Matrix [This message was edited by Dot Matrix on July 07, 2002 at 14:44.]

To help prevent someone from hacking into your computer and stealing your addresses, username and password -- Download "Tiny personal firewall" It is free. You can do it at: http://download.com.com/3000-2092-6313778.html?tag=lst-0-1 You will get a message that will alert you when someone is trying to get in to your pc and you say "permit" or "deny" (Wait 'till you see how many times information will be on its way out of your pc!! Then hit deny, unless of course it is like your e-mail company or something you wish to permit then hit that button.) Dot Matrix [This message was edited by Dot Matrix on July 01, 2002 at 15:11.]

Looking for Sue -- Sue, I worked with you at Woodies and witnessed to you! Lost your address and phone number while in CA!!!! Been looking for you since ( do not worry I don't want to involve you in another cult -- so sorry about that) Dot Matrix [This message was edited by Dot Matrix on July 07, 2002 at 15:56.]

Well, since we moved from ez board we lost all the previous chatter. Let's start over, hello 11th!!! Dot Matrix

Hope you said: That's why I asked if any of you found yourselves wanting or needing to be part of some kind of group since leaving TWI, and did you take the new group as seriously? In answer to this question, I saw almost everyone I knew leave TWI and go into something else. I personally did not want to join or go to ANYTHING where I might have to join, stay, be nice to people -- anything. I departed and wanted to hide. I felt as though I was trying to outrun a pyroclastic cloud. I left during the big out in the 80?s and we were all kind of scrambling for validation. We left and kept fighting the draw to go back. -- Not that we wanted to return but it was like driving by an accident and having the need to look, Then later maybe search for it in the newspaper to see WHAT HAPPENED? I disconnected from people, changed my phone number and disappeared. I could not be comfortable in any MEETINGS. I had this feeling it would never end -- like in the corps. Looking at it now, I, who was very sanguine (having a need for people and approval) became withdrawn and tried to recover and figure things out by myself. But my friends? One became HUGE in Mary Kay because it was just like the ROA and her meetings were just like twig. Another went on to join an immediate post-POP splinter. A male friend did sell that weird brown drink K something, etc. I think people look for things in common. When I was on a first date and if the guy like the same color I did, I was thrilled we had that in common. It was part of the first date magic . However, after I discovered he was a lazy drunkard, then I did not give a crap what colors he liked. Did I originally get involved because of like-mindedness? No. I got involved because I desperately needed to see the power of God in my life and I saw it upon taking PFAL. I hated a lot of the likeminded concept i.e., like if you were not smiling people would ask you what was wrong all the time, because we were all suppose to be so da^^n happy. I hated the way we were all suppose to be nice all the time. I recall a "LEADER" wanted to butt in line corps week when the food was slow for those of us last in line. He went up the line asking each person if he could get in front of them and they all politely say YES! He!l, I am from the North East and we hardly ever let someone butt in line!!! So, I said "no, I have been waiting here for a very long time and I have to be some where just like you do, so you can just get in line." It did not bode well. I was never a fan of the likeminded bull. I was a fan of the legitimate love (like-mindedness?) we all shared for God. I did love a large group of people worshiping God. I did love being around people that loved God and that I could grab almost anyone and say, "do you want to pray?" I LOVED that. I did like being in a large group that sang praises to our Lord. I enjoyed we all were doing it at the same time (like minded, I guess) But it is not why I got involved. It is perhaps a strong reason why I stayed. Hope, it factored in I am sure but was not the original reason I got involved. Dot Matrix