Hopefull

Rocky you are so right, I am truly overwhelmed by the empathy in here. Every poster in here knew exactly....without me saying a whole lot- the kind of emotional pain- there is relief in here-

((((((NotinKansas)))))))) I am very sorry for the loss of your dad.

Time heals all- or at least makes it so that eventually you no longer think of jumping off a bridge.

This morning I went to my ob/gyn- he wanted to do tests next week but he will be at a medical conference so I have to wait 2 weeks.

You guys are wonderful.

(((((Wacky))))) Thank-you, you helped me alot the other night by listening to me cry/IM my brains out.

I wish that I wasn't so fragile.

((((AHAT)))))You and everyone else really do understand. The pain of loss is terrible- my life is bleaker in every way from this week forward.

Sometimes, life SUCKS. But I haven't cried yet today so that is a step in the right direction.

This thread has been a lifeline for me.

Hopefull, the poster child for Zoloft

(((Excath))) (((Dot))) (((TCat)))

All you ((((((ladies))))))

I have been praying alot this week - for God's will, for peace, for letting go, for direction and meaning- and for other people. I have to say I hit some sort of bottom.

I have wondered what it means when people say that they have seen His (Jesus) face because it has never happened to me but since I remember lots of my dreams, I know I have had dreams about God and felt God in my unconscious sleep.

Last night I was up in the middle of the night at the usual time, periodically weeping, and after the re-run of NYPD Blue was over at 4AM, I was flipping and came across the worship channel. There was some nice Christian music on so I put the sleep timer on for half an hour and I eventually went to sleep and the music and the words were in my dreams. And I had a dream where I humbled myself before the Lord and was given a measure of peace.

Common sense tells me that I am not through this yet and am keeping my intital therapist app't next week. The circumstances are still the same, after all.

BUT Praise God I have a some peace today and am more willing to accept the things that I cannot change, change the things I can and ask for the wisdom to know the difference. It is ONLY the Lord that could have relieved me somewhat from the overwhelming, crushing, debilitating pain and despair. I am still sad, but so far today it is a manageable sad.

God bless you lovely ladies-- I believe my dream of peace may be a result of someone else here praying for me- with me.

Hopefull

My husband was out of work for 6 months- then he found work through a temp agency. The company he works at said they would hire him

in 3 months and 6 months later he is still a temp. They push him to get the work out faster and faster but won't hire him so they don't have to pay ins. and benefits- eveyday he feels like walking out but it is like everyone says- this is the world right now.

I am praying for you all.

Hopefull

Freaky and Krys, thank-you- and mj- thanks- that was truly an awesome and inspired post.

Thank-you- your responses have meant a great deal to me- thank-you Dot, Kit, laleo, AHAT, and Rascal- Dot your Jesus pic made me cry and Kit, your pics touched me and I believe your prayers heal people.

I am grieving over a loss and a dream and am facing things that I can no longer avoid.

I do have my dr. app'ts all lined up for the health stuff, which seem to be taking a back seat to my emotions.

Men don't know how lucky they are sometimes to be wired differently than women.

Does Jesus really understand the heart of a woman? Or is there no gender in heaven? I seem to be crying all the time lately. It is a comfort to know that Jesus wept too and that you wonderful ladies have prayed for me.

Love to you!

A bit more Hopefull today

[This message was edited by Hopefull on October 22, 2003 at 12:07.]

Going through a dark time, both with my emotions and my health- good thoughts and prayers much appreciated.

Hope

Cooking for blondes:

two words "micro wave"

Tcat, I am so glad! I know you'll be feelin' frisky in no time!!

Shell, thanks for posting this.

Sweet ((((((EX10th)))) so sorry you have lost your wonderful dad. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

...that you know what's best for you, either by your own volition or though your personal relationship with God.

...you can enjoy pop culture and not analyze it "spiritually speaking."

...sleeping in til 10 on Sunday can be good for the body and you are not obligated to go to a meeting or to church unless you choose.

...your last vacation was extra wonderful because you didn't have to give your schedule to anyone.

...your stress level is so much less and your self esteem is greater because no one reprimands you anymore.

...some of your family members are really cool people and you would like to get to know them better.

...your head is clearer because it is not being screwed up by the "anti christian" teachings of a supposedly "christian" organization.

...your feeling about gays is live and let live and you are able to treat all people more tolerently.

...you don't have all the answers.

...you have a better life style because you can work a little extra without conflicts and are no longer a victim of extortion.

Any more?

I am in this club, but barely.

1977-1998.

Happy Birthday, Big Guy.

Love, Hopefull

Happy Belated Birthday, Rottiegrrrl! Best wishes for a happy, healthy year full of good things!

Hopefull

C'mon Larry, we all know it's what you have inside the socks and not the shorts that horrified them. :P-->

[This message was edited by Hopefull on May 22, 2003 at 12:25.]

I am the least of all who are last!

Thanks for answering my question.

No Mike, I m not going to answer your questions and I'm not interested in being witnessed to by you.

I had 21 years of bible/pfal minutae and have learned more than I cared to about Mr. Weirwilles' spin on the bible. I prefer to go to other sources now- sources that help me understand the meaning of the bible and not the "accuracy" or the "new light" as defined by the way.

Please don't try to change my mind- I am an adult and have the right to choose to be close-minded about a subject.

Mike,

You are much better at asking questions than answering them. Unlike you, I am not interested in a debate. I only expressed a concern for your wording- *living in the fast lane*-- the insinuation that a person who has fallen prey to a MOG's sexual advances had loose morals. I did not say anything about respecting or not respecting the MOG.

If you don't want to address the issue that's fine.

Mike,

If I was a young girl who was molested by Mr. Weirwille or any MOG under their instructions that I would be doing God's work by blessing the MOG, does that mean I *lived in the fast lane*??

Hey guys!

What are we all talking about?????

I pray this time of treatment will pass quickly and result in a good report.

My husband went through a month of radiation and a year of chemo for lung cancer stage 3B and has been in remission for 2 years. The drugs that are out now to treat cancer are amazing.

My prayers go out to your sister and her family and you during this dark time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO A WONDERFUL WOMAN WHO HAS CONTRIBUTED LOTS AND LOTS HERE AT GS AND IS ADMIRED BY ALL.

...and even more important, anyone in chat that thinks I am you at first is really super nice to me...

Happy Birthday and oodles more, ((((RICH))))

Love from FULL

Thank-you Adios! :D--> That probably comes from staying at a 5 star hotel the night before! Although the pics were well taken, they really don't do anyone justice.

It was the most fun I had had in a long time, and it was great to meet everyone!