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Happy to hear the good news

There is stuff to learn here for sure.

I love this

You must be careful not to get side tracked into acting out. All the forces that want to keep you enslaved, encourage you to act out your feelings rather than release them, because that is how they keep us enslaved.

B-

A limb coordinator once gave me a donut.

ROTFL

The wind of change was obvious to me in 1977 when they started that whole "PFAL is the class for you" All the other ROA's seemed to be about Jesus and/or God stuff. That ROA was the big push of the CLASS. It changed things. But I did not leave until after the reading of that vile paper Chris Geer read to the corps. I stayed TOO long. I thought I could change the ministry BACK to focus on God. I did not know we did not focus on God because VP never had that as his focus -- only those men whose ideas were stolen were focused on Jesus/God. Stayed TOO long and in the WRONG place...

The FOG years -- GEEZ - the fog horn had blown loudly and repeatedly... "Get out" it bellowed. Most of my friends already left.

I forgot the two people who promised to sponsor me even though they lived on a park bench and ate from a trash can. I told them that they had the qualifications to go WOW and lead the nations - they only needed a "donation" to take the PFAL class and learn about POWER. So, they sold their blood over and over again under various names until they fell on the floor of the ER--- I no longer had their addresses... I do not know if they lived through it... What could I DO to raise the other $1.50 to stay in the corps? I know, I could.....

David-

I read about Marsha in your post and thought I like this guy validating the Marsha story...

Then, I read what you said to Onephile and Thomas and I am not so sure. What are you saying? If you are trying to "love" and encourage them, I must say you seem a bit judging and mean. Please explain before my first opinion of you changes. Thanks.

A scurry instead as I found that when I had strung the chairs the string had wrapped around my foot and by accident I had tripped LCM as he practiced dancing in a tight running suit and head band. I knew they were looking for me - then I saw VPW. He was still angry, I had dropped a bottle of his drambuie and now he heard that I tripped Craig. He bellowed....

Yeah, like those priests who were still working at the church with kids....

Man....

Not a false prophet stuff but odd maybe belongs on a new thread

I think she married John Schimmemi I do not know how to spell it, maybe you can ask on the 11th corps thread. I was friends with her in the corps. She is WONDERFUL.

http://aslansplace.com/articles/?0000000048

...What are the results? A spiritual hybrid spider is released. This spider hatches viper eggs. The snake that is released from the egg leads to death with the implication that this death is a premature death. The evil words that are released from one’s mouth have a cascade affect that leads to the destruction of one’s life and other’s lives. Until the point of death, there are physical, mental and spiritual consequences that unravel a healthy life into a life of disorder, pain, and suffering. The roots of all of this can be generational. This evil permeates society. Deception is provoked to such an extent that those who are convicted of their sin and want to turn towards righteousness, become a victim to the verbal attacks of others....

HE says...I approached the woman and placed my hand over the Isle of Langerhans which is located on the top portion of the pancreas. As I suspected, I could feel the spider with its fangs inserted into the Isle of Langerhans. We agreed to pray against the spider....

Well what do you think about this?

The spiritual spider? I think it is a figure of speech perhaps, and instead, these people FEEL his fangs?

Literally?

What do you think? I wrote the person who sent me this because I feel as a watchman it needed to be addressed

How is it going?

I think WD first posted about him. Anyway, he is on Oprah tomorrow

Thanks my buddy. It was a painful lesson. I do not like feeling or set up to be a schmuck -- being from the North East, we would beat people up for less than that! (smile)

Praise the Lord!!! God is always good!

Yet in scripture they are saying to Jesus (paraphrased) I worked hard for you - let me in. Like they believe it. Unless, their last con is to try and con them. Some are wolves in sheeps clothing - I think they know they are a wolf. But these verses seemed to challange that.

He was not my idea of a great hubby nor I of a great wife to him. We were not suited, but to his credit, he was the best "son" to his mother I ever saw. He really stood for her, helped her, loved her and treated her well. I wish him well.

I get that.

And ya know, we started out with prayer. He really was a nice guy to offer prayer like that. I called to thank him and it all rolled downhill after that. Truth is, I thought we were developing a lasting friendship. He even told me he would be my friend "to death." Shame. He had all the makings of an incredible person, I pray he straightens out. He could really do some good in the world. And I? Well, I went in stupid. But my eyes were open. Just dim from the debris of the 20-year-storm. That is my fault not his.

Just wish people did not use "God's name" to do their dirty work. Just say, "I am human. I am lonely and I like you. I need to build my base church and I need donations and support. Let's date and see where this goes as I straighten my life out, I have been under the weather from heart ache of my own."

I would have gone in but without the hidden stuff. That is the crap that hurts. I am okay now. Involved in God stuff, happy but I needed to get ALL my power back and let people know its not just TWI. Each day it is a battle field. Each decision can place us in that battle on the wrong side of the fence. The Bible really is a rule book. God does love us. Some ministers make mistakes and can incorporate their mistakes in their teachings - Like Joyce Meyer. Others, are great and fall. Others, hide the mistakes, while some know they are off and do not care, some are just evil. We are all just people and being held together by stuff that is as delicate as it is strong.

I wish him no harm. I truly cared. Have a nice life out there in the west and may God direct you back to the center of his will.

God protects me in the mighty name of Jesus.

Do they know they are false?

Cause here they are trying to convince Jesus they were doing the right thing...

Lord we did ll the right things....

Did they know or were they so DECEIVED that they did not know (Con men know they are pulling a con - do these guys know?)

“Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves. Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles? Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit. A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit. Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire. Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them. Not everyone that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven. Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? And in thy name have cast out devils? And in thy name done many wonderful works? And then will I profess unto them, I NEVER KNEW YOU: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.” (Matt 7:15-23)

That about covers it. Then, there is the time lost - the education I did NOT do because I did the WAY CORPS instead...

All of it. Then, I get hit again with this minister idiot. I was crazy for him... Turns out I was just crazy... None of it was God's desire for me or his fault -- again, I have to own up and wear the "stupid" T-shirt. But hey, I was honest. I just get blown away when I find out the "agendas" are so self serving.

I was ashamed. I could not even look at someone in the eye for fear that could look into me and see a banner saying "Stupid girl"

For me it is deeper. It reached shame. Then, when Seymore and Gloria came out to my home, they turned things around for me. And they did it by saying it was "Christ in me!!!"

I felt ashamed near him as he was so smart and had done so much with his life. I was in a terrible worthless place.

Somehow, when he said "IT is Christ IN you!" I got it.

We all have the same measure of God -- we have his son on our insides and that makes the playing field level. It is about our "insides" not our outsides

It is what God accomplished for us through Christ. If I had to rely on "me" I would never be able to look anyone in the eye again... But I know it is Christ looking back at them when they look at me.

We posted at the same time. I see what you are saying, maybe more regrets for you. I am ashamed and disgusted with myself - I really am.

I am always TOO trusting:

Example with the idiot Minister -

The worst:

After I sent him a tithe he called and asked if it was off net or gross. I said "net" he said a true tithe is off "GROSS". He was right and I sent the next one off of gross.

Then, he called me and said (and this is almost verbatim)

“I do not know what to do with my church. After all I did for them do you know what I get as a tithe? I got _____.

I said, “ I gave you that much. The whole church only gave you that?”

He said, “I am going to walk away, turn my back on them and watch them go down.”

I said, “Teach on tithing.”

“I did,” he said in a soft growl.

“What is the problem?”

“It is hard to explain.”

“Do they understand your messages?”

“It is just hard to explain.”

Several months go by and he tells me that he is going to resign from the church, he had met with the women’s fellowship and there are some things that needed to change and they didn’t so he was resigning. Just weeks prior to all this was his long absence and one of the last things he was mad about was I questioned him on tithing cause I did not have my mortgage - I asked about "other offerings", he told me that maybe I should tithe to the local church I attended. At first I sent him nothing to see if that would have a bearing on “us”. Then, I gave him a partial tithe.

He says, "I am resigning from the church."

I said, “Well, you said you were going to walk away several months ago.”

“I NEVER said that.”

“Yes, when you said they only gave you_________ for a tithe.” I reminded him.

“I never have gotten that little I get a large offering, I have NEVER had a problem with tithing in my church.”

Then, all of a sudden he “quits” us. I was the CHURCH he was talking about.

He had been slyly making fun of my tithe. The tithe I had to borrow from my future checks to meet my mortgage. He was so sly. I figured the “church” meeting was to have them do the newsletter and website we had done together. He used the excuse of a “prophet” telling him to bail on our project as he is a chicken s (h)it. It was ALL about money and I did not make or give enough.

At one point he asked me to send him $250.00 and he could make me a millionaire. He would invest it. I said, “Are you a millionaire?”

(I figured he would not be telling me this if her were.)

Then, he asked me nondirectly for my social security number and I did not give it to him, he said one of our mutual acquaintances, gave me his and let me make a deposit for him.”

I said, “I do not have $250.00.”

I was terribly ashamed of my wasted life, my stupid decisions, my dumb existance, I could and should have been, done and "lived" more. I was very ashamed of myself -- disgusted way more than dissappointed

Again thanks - it was very well written!

The song I wrote - I cannot write music so I have to record the tune. So, the lyrics

"Where am I Lord?"

God I don’ know who I am or what I am to do-

I ask to the sky and wait patiently on you

I am spinning round the corners where darkness used to be

I can’t see or hear you because I don’t feel free

I am ashamed of who I am

I am ashamed of who I might have been

I am ashamed of how I spent my time

I’m ashamed of who I let in

I cannot feel my feet to order them to walk

I cannot find my tongue with words to leave my mark

So, I mutter to the lost in all the wind

Trying to find you but find I’m giving in

Who am I that I lost you?

Who am I that I cry?

When you have done all for me

With a risen savior who did not simply die

Who did not simply die

Do you feel my pain Lord do you hear my voice?

I am trying hard to find you

I know it is my choice

Tell me what to do, Lord

Speak up so I can hear (you)

prayin with my eyes closed crumpled on the floor

Begging for direction, there’s gotta be more

Life has left me flat lined looking for the door

Holding onto nothing I know in Jesus there is more

I am ashamed of who I am

I am ashamed of who I might have been

I am ashamed of how I spent my time

I’m ashamed of who I let in

I cannot feel my feet to order them to walk

I cannot find my tongue with words to leave my mark

So, I mutter to the lost in all the wind

Trying to find you but find I’m giving in

Who am I that I lost you?

Who am I that I cry?

When you have done all for me

With a risen savior who did not simply die

Who did not simply die -

Make the locust leave me for I have been their meal

Restore back to normal so that I may feel

Where have you gone God? Or is it me that moved?

I’m trying hard to find you, and I don’t know how to see.

Reach me as you find me –

Lift me off the floor

I am lost and I am broken

Jesus come and find me, again

Jesus come and find me, again

Again...

Well - he reached me in all of this and God is amazing. The Lord is the love who does not change, run, hide, lie or misrepresent himself. He is the GREATEST lover of all.