ImLikeSoConfused

Is there anyone you recommend instead of wierwille then? Just reading some of the stuff he did is just unbelievable. I feel effected by the cult even though i was barely involved. Reading all his material and soaking it in as my "friend" told me to do has me really messed in the head right now. Is the consensus that stfs material is just as bad? i feel sort of brainwashed now. I really do feel like some good came out of his material but i didn't know all this stuff about him and my "friend" who disappeared all of a sudden, either tricked me or is brainwashed himself. I really do believe he believes in what weirwille taught. I just don't know what to believe anymore. On one hand you have some teachings that seem to stick and work on another the man who taught these things was a terrible person so how does one figure out what is real anymore. It's like my entire world is crashed and i never step foot in the ways building and this all started from meeting one person on an internet forum.Sigh:/

I guess the question is although he was wrong about the law of believing to the extent he taught it. Surely the bible talks about faith and the importance of it. I don't think faith or belief can grow limbs on an amputee and i now doubt the story he told of healing the indian mans arm but is there no truth to what he said? is there any good that came out of it? Or do people believe he was bad and all that he did was bad? I obviously don't know much about this guy except the people closest to him almost worship him. Clearly his death shows that he was wrong to the extent that what you believe always happens etc but some of his stuff seems to be on point. I'm left confused about my experiences the last 2 years tumbling down the wierwille rabbithole reading all of his material and trying to apply it. I know i started speaking in tongues and grew closer to God more because of his work but i wonder if some here feel that any good they got from him isnt worth the bad? I just need to know more, to know if I should remove all his material from my pc and phone etc yet something about him and his work compels me to share his work and sort of excuse his shortcomings which a lot of his close friends like john schoenheit seem to do.

I was never part of the way however a "friend" i met on an internet forum introduced his material to me and told me something bad will happen if i give the material to someone else. That I would be in some trouble. That confused me but I never did give his material to any but just gave the pdf book bible tells me so to my sister to read. I don't know if it was a good decision or not but i'd hope not to regret it. I simply don't know enough about wierwille or the way or anything about his books, all I know is his stuff about the law of believing led to me having all kinds of spiritual experiences where I kept trying to believe things and this sort of led to delusions and me ending up in a psych ward because I thought I could have or do anything if I only believed enough. Obviously theres something seriously wrong with that teaching but I just find it so compelling. I wish it were true but it clearly isn't. The thing is though I became more spiritual after reading his material, talking to God and Jesus, speaking in tongues(something i doubt i ever wouldve been able to do without his material). I mean some good came out of the bad. I just don't know the truth about wierwille but what i read so far here doesn't seem good. So its sort of a dilemma because some good did come out of the bad. And I feel closer to God now than I ever did before his material. So I really don't know.

Like with all the scandals and accusations against him.

That is true but I'd like to hear from others on their opinion on whether or not its a good idea or not.

I know hes sort of a fraud but his material really resonated with me in a way other authors haven't. I felt joy and hope reading his book bible tells me so. I know hes a rotten person but is it okay to recommend his material to others? I know his law of believing is false and who knows what else but for just a little bit I felt in control of my life. So whats the consensus here on his material? Still okay? Or get rid of it and forget about it?