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    Song of the moment

    in Open

    Posted

    TIMELESS!

    I loved Tammy Terrel~ what a tragic day when she died!

    For you babe:

    Baby are you down down down down down,

    Down, down,

    Even if the sky is falling down,

    Down, down

    Ooh (ohhh)

    (Verse 1)

    You oughta know, tonight is the night to let it go,

    Put on a show, i wanna see how you lose control,

    (Bridge)

    So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,

    So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.

    (Chorus)

    So baby don’t worry, you are my only,

    You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,

    You’ll be my only, no need to worry,

    Baby are you down down down down down,

    Down, Down,

    Baby are you down down down down down,

    Down, Down,

    Even if the sky is falling down,

    (Verse 2)

    Just let it be, come on and bring your body next to me,

    I’ll take you away, hey, turn this place into our private getaway,

    (Chorus)

    So baby don’t worry, you are my only,

    You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,

    You’ll be my only, no need to worry,

    Baby are you down down down down down,

    Down, Down,

    Baby are you down down down down down,

    Down, Down,

    Even if the sky is falling down,

    LiL Wayne

    (Verse 3)

    Even if the sky is falling down like she supposed to be,

    She gets down low for me,

    Down like her temperature, ’cause to me she zero degree,

    She cold, overfreeze,

    I got that girl from overseas,

    Now she my miss America,

    now can i be her soldier please,

    I’m fighting for this girl,

    On the battlefield of love,

    Don’t it look like baby cupid sending arrows from above,

    Don’t you ever leave the side of me,

    Indefinitely, not probably,

    and honestly im down like the economy,

    Yeahhhhhh

    (Bridge)

    So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,

    So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape,

    (So why don’t we run away)

    (Chorus)

    So baby don’t worry, you are my only,

    You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,

    You’ll be my only, no need to worry,

    Baby are you down down down down down,

    Down, Down,

    Baby are you down down down down down,

    Down, Down,

    Even if the sky is falling down

    When "I" was breaking up with The Way...

    in About The Way

    Posted · Edited by Dot Matrix

    When should I jump? When was the best time to get off this "mystery train?" Where was a soft spot to land? Are any of my "friends" going to jump with me? What will we find after jumping as the train chugs away?

    Sky and Waysider

    Exactly

    And I spent the next 14 years looking and rejecting churches everywhere...

    Groucho summed it up for me, one night, when he said (something like this); "When you are looking for God, look to GOD to find him. Then, if you wish to corporately worship, go do so, and if it gets funky leave. Cause you already have a foundation WITH GOD not defined by the "group." Can people find God at church? Some do and I am thankful but a lot of times we find "religion" or something manmade... we have to establish a relationship with God that is is unshakable ~ not matter what, no matter what anyone says, you stand firm in the Lord and your foundation is a rock which stands against all storms…."

    What I saw in what he stated was:

    Somewhere along my journey, I had allowed the group to define God, God's will for my life and who I was. This made everything shake because I had built my house upon sand...

    Cheranne

    Great song "It's my life!" Ain't it the truth!?!

    When "I" was breaking up with The Way...

    in About The Way

    Posted

    You know it is your intensity, kindness and insight that has me sit waiting for your next word ~ I love you Groucho!

    "...and of course, in the process, I have met many fine people here whose friendship I value...As I take Dot Matrix by the hand and walk away from the cafe for the last time...as I watch them board up the windows and lock the front door for the last time...I will have a tear in my eye.

    For me, leaving this place is much harder than when I "broke up with the Way"...I wish the best for all of you...health, prosperity and love...and don't forget:

    "Let it be known there is a fountain that was not made by the hands of men" -Robert Hunter"

    And it is more difficult leaving here, as it was less pocked by the administering of disease, although some tried, and was all about "healing", finding old friends and sharing the truth...

    When "I" was breaking up with The Way...

    in About The Way

    Posted · Edited by Dot Matrix

    Some corps left inresidency at the Christmas break......some staff packed their bags after confrontation.......some left in the middle of the night.....and some slowly drifted away by projecting more commitments to career, family, etc. Just seemed like twi was structured to stay on the wierwille-laden tracks and, the further it traveled, this train was taking me toward isolation and a barren wilderness.

    When should I jump? When was the best time to get off this "mystery train?" Where was a soft spot to land? Are any of my "friends" going to jump with me? What will we find after jumping as the train chugs away?

    Skyrider:

    This was almost lyrical in its delivery and choice of well placed very descriptive words... It should be a forward on a book or an epitaph read at the final end of TWI. It makes me remember a song which may or may not fit your hearts expression, but it is with this, I give you a hug and a well wish,

    "as I make my journey back to my homeland, my family, my true self, and my Lord."

    (((Skyrider))) I shall miss you...

    Song of the moment

    in Open

    Posted

    To Groucho Marx jr:

    "You've Got A Way"

    You've got a way with me

    Somehow you got me to believe

    In everything that I could be

    I've gotta say-you really got a way

    You've got a way it seems

    You gave me faith to find my dreams

    You'll never know just what that means

    Can't you see... you got a way with me

    It's in the way you want me

    It's in the way you hold me

    The way you show me just what love's made of

    It's in the way we make love

    You've got a way with words

    You get me smiling even when it hurts

    There's no way to measure what your love is worth

    I can't believe the way you get through to me

    It's in the way you want me

    It's in the way you hold me

    The way you show me just what love's made of

    It's in the way we make love

    Oh, how I adore you

    Like no one before you

    I love you just the way you are

    It's in the way you want me

    It's in the way you hold me

    The way you show me just what love's made of

    It's in the way we make love

    It's just the way you are

    When "I" was breaking up with The Way...

    in About The Way

    Posted · Edited by Dot Matrix

    Well, I was optimistically hoping lcm was able to be fixed by some help from his friends.

    ("Iron sharpens iron...")

    I figured the old-timers from twi could restore him to full functionality.

    (Since almost everything was under news blackout, I had no idea what the underlying problems

    were or how pervasive they were in twi.)

    So, I figured that vf and some others would chat with lcm, and lcm would settle in.

    The next mailer from twi was lcm saying "I fired vf and every leader in your state because

    they're carnal and greedy, and serving themselves rather than God."

    Now, I had to choose who to believe. vf and the local leaders, or lcm.

    the local leaders I had worked with in a few cases, and people I trusted worked with other

    local leaders. I'd seen vf teach and he didn't seem off. Therefore, it was unlikely that

    some 2-3 dozen of them were ALL carnal, greedy, etc.

    lcm, on the other hand, had demonstrated a willingness to yell, and to pontificate on matters

    he didn't understand. (He criticized some political strategies as ridiculous- and those

    strategies were exactly what the US needed to do at the time, and they benefited us in the long run.)

    So, if I HAD to choose one- and lcm was insisting that I HAD to choose one-

    the reasonable side had all the locals.

    My further exposure to them seemed to support that.

    That was 1989. I went to the ROA'89 with the intention of buying out the bookstore, and making

    personal observations. lcm's mass firings had resulted in 4/5 of twi leaving, so I had lots of

    space to move around and see things. I asked questions. People gave me faulty logic, and in one

    case, threats. All of those were quite indicative. The "side" of people staying was the "side"

    of people not making sense, relying on intimidation, trying to silence the other side,

    emotional appeals, etc.

    So, my arrival at ROA'89 was a watershed moment. It FELT nothing like the previous one. It felt empty,

    as if it was constructed based on DESCRIPTIONS of previous ROAs. And from what I'd heard, ROA'88

    was a pale imitation of the ROAs that had come before. So this was more of a bad photocopy lacking

    any toner than a "real" ROA. I met lots of people, made many observations, bought many books,

    and said my goodbyes. At the end, when I left, I was thinking of "American Pie" and how the

    "Father, Son and Holy Ghost" had "caught the last train to the coast". I had the distinct feeling

    that our exit pretty much was a final judgement, and what we left behind was beyond repairing.

    (History pretty much proved that correct, if a gross understatement.)

    Of course, I was saying goodbye to the organization and the insane top leaders. At the time, I was

    still hanging out with the locals. It took a few more years before it was obvious to me that I

    was not particularly welcome nor appreciated among the splinter group that had formed.

    (I thought for myself too much. When leadership said things that sounded wrong, I didn't just ignore

    that-I looked into it, and if error was shown, I spoke up, mostly TO said leadership. I didn't just

    BLINDLY go along with them any more than I BLINDLY went along with twi. So, as time progressed,

    I found fewer and fewer locals meeting that I felt wanted me around. So, that exit was more of a

    slow drift away, and there wasn't a watershed moment of exit. I seriously doubt more than 3 or 4

    of them missed me, any way.)

    Frankly, the GSC is the most interaction I've had with any ex-twi since then. Even with the

    food fights and petty bickering, it's been a LOT more healthy than my twi and splinter experience-

    because we actually spoke our minds.

    I love that you are that articulate about this event. The PFAL class so divided my life that I used to speak of my life as before and after I took the class. Then, I spoke about before and after the ministry imploded.

    I can feel your honesty and heart to do the right thing and the quest to find what the "right thing" was.

    They were weird times.

    I have SOOOO appreciated you through the years. I respected your posts, thoughts and insight. I will miss you.

    ((((WW))))

    For you, cause it was your ministry break-up song

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4l6RlWes3QM&feature=related

    Edited to put in a better copy of the song...

    When "I" was breaking up with The Way...

    in About The Way

    Posted · Edited by Dot Matrix

    When I was breaking up with The Way Ministry, I remember looking out at all these faces, of these wonderful people, I loved so dearly and I knew I would probably never see them again.

    This is the song I sang and to this day reminds me of all those lovely people.

    And Paw, Greasespot has reconnected me with so many long forgotten faces… I will always be grateful…

    So, I look around this café and I put this on the juke box and take Groucho’s arm as we say good bye in the next couple weeks. Thank you everyone!

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GsuRgEZS2yc

    Shoot! I am staying till the close down party!

    in Open

    Posted

    If this closes and is not picked up I am staying for the farewell party and I guess we could start now~

    :beer:

    My first toast is to PAW! Thank you for all you have done! It was a long road and you helped many many people by keeping this place going

    :smilie_kool_aid:

    My next is for Groucho ~ I am glad our "party" has just begun! I love you.

    My next is for Roy ~ I have loved your holy kisses and the honesty of your heart.

    And to Rummie ~ I will miss you forever thank you for your friendship!

    State of the Spot

    in Open

    Posted

    Thanks Paw for your labor of love. This place has helped me to find out the truth and has reunited me with many friends. I will miss it. Thank you!

    And with all the great things that have happened here the greatest thing for me personally was meeting GrouchoMarxjr.

    Thank you Greasespot and all of you wonderful people.

    I do not know where some of the people have gone like Housearockin and Hwy 29 or Rottie girl but I want them to know I love them and am thankful for their contributions to my life.

    Alfacat if you are out there pls get my contact information before the place closes.

    Catcup you have also enriched my life. Sunesis oh gosh so many.... Geisha....

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