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Okay, then. . . So, why did I leave? Gosh, my perception of the deception ran so deep. It was like a cut. That must be why it hurt so much. But then. . . there is the forgiveness factor. Forgiveness is a huge thing. Not something I learned much about while there but am working on it; to learn to accomplish it. It can be done. Jesus did it. Look what happend to him!

Gee. . . I've been through a lot since I left June 27, 2000. Same day I got in -- June 27, 1986 (not intentional) I still have a piece of the film class I took. Glad to have it. I'm very glad for the Word I learned. I don't doubt one word of it -- I never did believe that Jesus was God and then I learned that he never said he was! Gee, what a relief that was to me. Didn't even know I needed a relief. But it was kind of like -- "I knew it!" "I knew he wasn't God!" I am not bitter about my experience and thank God for that. I believe I was right where I needed to be to learn exactly what it was I needed to learn. I was hurt by stuff -- deeply -- but God guarantees in His Word that people will always disappoint. I have chosen to heal; take with me the good, and move on! Everybody sing. . .

Where are you? I miss you.

2fortheroad, hello. who are you? i took the fork in the road.. . . there aren't anymore.

Naw, just being silly. . .

Always wondered about the Dr. R. and Dud relationship with the big guy out at the island. . . good cover i suppose.

Hi, WG. Was the laying down on the cross in the movie? I don't remember that from the scriptures. From what I remember, Christ never touched it until he was nailed to it? Not being a smart ***, just wondering.

I am thankful to have seen what I did see. . . It reminded me of how evil the devil is. I was starting to forget. So, see? It will touch different people in different ways. Go Mel. Yea God.

Orientswife, Do you know her new last name? I don't know how to have a private conversation with you but will find out and we can discuss things there. Thanks!

Dear Dot Matrix and Ex. I'm with you guys. I went to see it today and had to leave 30 minutes into it. I could see the Mary worship and in my opinion it looked like the devil was the star not Jesus. I was shocked at first, but realize that if the whole Christian community is behind it, there has to be something rotten going on. But then, I remember that in pretense or in truth, Christ is preached. So, be it. I guess. How sad tho. It made me cry and still does.

Hi, Ex. I love "daydream believer"!! that's me. . . daydream believer. . . dee dee da dee dee dee dee :-)

Anyone heard from her? 21st corps. would love to get in touch with her.

hee hee sorry

are you a good witch? or a bad witch? hee hee sorry, couldn't resist i tried to be a bad witch but i couldn't do it my heart continually brings me back to Christ. not a bad place to be.

He had a big heart. . .

Dearest Papa John (I just love that pizza): It's not like that. . . they think they are right. . . that is why it goes on. . . and on. . . and on. . . it's the heart thing. . . except there has been so much hurt and destruction to people's lives and hearts that it's gone totally beyond that!! but i don't think they see it that way as far as I can see, no more excuses -- using people is using people. period! and anyone who does this horrible act will for sure be accountable before God! just think how God must see it -- i don't know for sure, but i see it as. . . people using another person's love for God to take advantage of them. . . how incredibly desceitful can that possibly be? sorry, i know i mispelled some werds. . . but don't see where spell check is! For me. . . that is the biggest offence there is -- taking advantage of a person's love for God. My goodness! how evil can you get???????? ??????????? ???????????? ????????????? ????????????? ????????????? ?????????????? ?????????????? ?????????????? ?????????????? ?????????????? [This message was edited by pawtucket on February 26, 2004 at 7:50.]

my reply directed to A Horse Called War. . . (sorry)

Hello. . . i just read your post! this apology was when??? gosh i don't remember that at all!

Hello, Wordwoof. hope you don't mind my calling you that. . . i like that name. !! since i have not researched you at all, i don't know what you have posted. but what i've read you seem to have been around for some time. and, you have a really good vibe. hee hee. not thinking anything other than getting to know someone who knows a lot! nothing underlying. . . just friends. :)-->

Dear Ex and Dot. . . Hello! No, I don't know about the private thing, but my e-mail is bigbloo7@yahoo.com. if you would, please make it plain in the subject line because I delete most of what is there because I don't use this account much! Look forward to hearing from both of you. 30 years is a along time! it's like me and my best friend from high school. . . we've just been in touch the last year or so . . . it's been so great . . . ex -- loved your response to something i wrote recently - the emoticon was a kiss on the cheek. how sweet. that REALLY meant a lot to me. look forward to getting to know you guys!! :)--> can't find the kiss on the cheek one.

there is soooo much to go on about. . . i will save that for another time.

Dear Dot. . . Meeeee drinking again. . . hope i did better this time. i like u and ex. . . we have a lot in common except i think we live on different sides of the country!

that is why i left, i mean cleft!!! it just never changes. . . and the "joe blow believer" in the little town loving God with the little fellowship would never know. . . it never changes. IT IS SUCH A LIE. . . it is the biggest lie. . . i was surprised that LP left!!!!! he was one of the biggest offenders!! his "better half" must half found out -- she always wore the pants in the family. she was meeeeeen.

OH, i remember what i wanted to way. . . i mean, say, the ONLY thing that never changed was having sex. did i seplll that right?? everything else could change, be rearranged, peeple come and go, but that was the one thing that never changed. . . never. . . never. . . and really, i don't care, except that it was and probably still is (i'm sure) such a lie. . . just because the big guy is "OUT" and not at HQ doesn't mean a darn thang!! i'm very confident that all is just as it was. . . that NEVER changes. . .

Dear all, and especially Excathedra. . . hope i spelled all okay.. . i'm on my 2nd bottle of chardonney and really i think i mispelled that! anyhoo. . . i loved what you said, Ex, "your dorkness" i think is what you said referring to darkness, which i TOTALLY agree with -- that the way is run by DARKNESS -- sad as it is. . . . i see it as your dorkiness!! hahahahah.. i will continue in a moment -- as soon as i remember what it was yuuuuuu said!! hee hee