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I really didn't see the Corporation named or accredited in any way in any of this.. the *safety* is only at best temporary. Or seasonal. they just don't see it that way..

who was it safe for.. so far, from the "relevant" discussion." Da way was a safe harbor, for a leader with an erection..

The Victoid (sorry I capitalized his name) was *lucky* enough to be a Swine, at the right time..

he didn't figure it out. fear, or fearlessness? there will BE a debriefing on the other side of this existence.. well.. maybe I shouldn't say more. Sounds pretty nutty, even to me.. but doesn't anyone else have any impressions like this? you had to make a few agreements with whoever it was there to come here.. from what I remember.. the dialogue went something like "you'll never figure it out. Or at least, the odds are VERY SLIM that you will.." it could just be an illusion. maybe self-induced.. maybe from watching the Outer Limits in the early sixties.. the "easy" answer during the debriefing.. "sorry, I was (or chose to be) a moron.."

about the best year I had was 1974.. weird. I'm still connected to myself, over forty years later.. there is too much good that I would have to undo to go back to change anything.. what would you change, if you could? well.. me. but then, I'm connected, aren't I. I've changed a lot in the present.. I just wish I could give a *tad* bit more wisdom to the poor clueless bastard in 1974..

you really don't need a bible to watch and comment on a video with two women and a dog.. honestly you really don't.. the "honesty" makes him a manogawd? I won't put those words in your mouth. But if they are there.. my reply would be.. "you've got to be kidding me.."

if not "serious port".. what is the next step? Beastiality? Oh. Yes.. the victoid didn't show that in da class. That was reserved for mixed audiences, with some underage viewers in da corps.. admired? He was (a very very small version) of the Timothy Leary of christianity. well, most of his audience had already turned on, tuned in.. no thanks to da vicmeister.. but wasn't that the POINT of what he had to offer with his wares? Drop out of "conventional" society and religion? too bad it was to fall into the hands of a depraved, drunken lunatic and sex-fiend.. and those like him.. happened to the "keeds" who fell into manson's alternative lifestyle as well. The mansons tried to "love bomb" Carl Wilson as well. Didn't exactly work.. thank god.. "there are those among us who would GLADLY EXECUTE you" if they had half a chance. even if their assumptions were incorrect..

yep. sorry,that's the best I've got here..

I hope .. the newer generation, finds.. LSD 25.. it was a wrench, tossed in the machinery..

everything.. was wrong with us.. including me.

considering in this life.. I've been met with debts from the last one.. or was that from the one before.. or was that from the one before that.. yeah. I wish I could just remember what it was that I owed..

we'll just call it a draw. I paid in, year after year.. raised productive, educated individuals, in my household. I really did all I could do here.. no. They will find two loan officers. One will be an absolute saint. The other one, would rob his mother of her pension, to pay the tax debt.. yes, they will find two. and they will give both of them stern, strict orders to collect from me, moments before shooting both of them in the head.. :biblaugh: sorry. It's a running joke here..

ha! I think that is what I was trying to say.. really, there is nothing left there.. but I was one of the stooges who paid in.. lets see how they can reconcile all that, and student loans.. I think as the book keepers might interject, hit even..

I don't know about you. But I am running on fumes here.. in more ways than one.. I've outlived my dad by close to ten years.. the Tallman family has rarely had a male living much past sixty.. there was one one early settlement that failed, because of this. It is much easier for the next generation to find sustenance elsewhere. My dad found it in the Army airforce in WW2.. so. as for me. The student loan people will come. They will have to descend into Hell to collect.. I'll just say, "take it out of my social security account".

well, yes. If he "threw out" all of his "secular" material.. how did the video of the women and dog end up as some kind of original "research material"? I mean.. throw out bible commentaries.. how did gross porn get the priviledge of being left behind? "kiddees. *we* are not here, to study da bible.. you can get that in any ordinary, bland, denomination.."

he was such a what.. tourist? maybe that's a better description than manogawd.. the very best rock and roll does not put this kind of s*it up front. It lays it between the lines.. listen to Clapton.. strange brew.. there is a lot more..

We already knew all, or most of the slang terms, didn't we? What "new light" was presented here? "hafta read it in da original, keeds.." was that it?

who is worthy.. it is not for me to decide. Even in regards to myself.. I kind of look at it like.. maybe I shouldn't say.. if there is no room for me.. well, they can go to hell. I hope this makes sense to somebody other than my delusional self here..

I'm still trying to figure out how an innocent shovel is being implicated in all of this.. yeh.. don't blame me.. it was da shovel..

under what other circumstances.. would a mid life male.. taking the hand of a practically teen aged female.. and placing it on his erection.. be acceptable? In CHURCH? *we* were SUPPOSED to be.. church. there were a few boundaries even in my most devoted way days that I would not cross.. crazy.. It's what.. scary thoughts. The church of the "liberated".. "Praise da lord, sister.." Those who I feel real compassion for.. is those who came across the path of *uncle* howard.. what a very, very small soul.. even the hippies had a few standards.. it doesn't feel good, don't do it..

I wonder what da "present truth" is now.. trickling down the long dead bark of da way tree.. right before my exit.. money was pretty much required. but they started looking at some kind of devilish "balance" between possible income by abundant sharing.. vs. the cost of damage control.. in other words, if you were sick as a dog. They didn't want your money.. it had to be *clean" what was the word.. mammon.. so.. anybody still in the organization that can "produce"? tons of money for the coffers, and excellent health, including perfect health, and a detailed dental history besides?

but not entirely. You can stay.. as long as the money holds out, AND you don't present the remote possibility of being a liability..

You can still get a case of it for $78.00 U.S. dollars.. http://figpep.com/

dagnabbit.. I put this on the other computer, and it was "loading" forever..

ha.. we are always on the bus.. once on, always on. Kind of like once saved..