Ham

ahhh. the steaks.....

hah.. it's not even Tuesday, afternoon..

maybe it's a question.. "how big is YOUR god.." I mean.. no room for *lesser* beings.. doesn't have the time.. what does that say about YOU? :) I mean.. if I have to spell it all out.. you are less than "Him".. are you not? today has been a "perfect" day.. there are days, and then there is today.. if this was the last one, I'd be satisfied.. ever have a day like that?

What about the cats under my charge.. If they can't go.. neither do I.. :) actually, they would be easier to take care of than me.. sorry.. I mean what do we do? Send the pets of to some *eternal* "howliday" resort or something? don't say they aren't souls.. There is not a single soul I've "kicked out" of my life so far.. can't say I haven't been obnoxious at times.. please forgive me if or when I have been.. "not one paw will be left behind.." as long as I have some influence here..

perfection or results not guaranteed.. that was the hook.. if.. one can't have the possibility of a broken heart.. one does not have a heart.. :)

no.. I've seen the glimpse of home once. In the eyes of another like me.. will I ever go "home".. :) I have to be "invited".. can't break and enter anywhere.. even in a cosmic sense..

I just wonder.. well yes. I have had the few "chances" to help out.. what does that say about *us*? Or does it imply anything at all.. nothing, everything.. or something in between.. so.. I went through a living hell (no better description!) to come to this life to begin with.. it all may have just been a dream or illusion.. but I remember it like yesterday.. all I remember.. this is something I wanted.. I wonder if anyone else has the same impressions, or thoughts..

so... the big question.. why are *we* here to begin with.. a purpose.. a mission? Or just to be? I vote on the third.. however in practice, I hold more firmly to the first than the second..

naw.. it's giving BIRTH to the darned degree.. "I've been in labor for almost two years.." I hope I don't die in childbirth.. there was one character that came to campus right before I graduated with the Bachellor's.. he described Grad School.. living on a stipend.. with just barely enough left over for beer. "thank gawd for beer..".. well.. that's pretty close to his exact quote..

I can only guess.. either its a Master's degree, or a baby. Maybe they are both the same thing..

birthing pains.. yep.. heh.. I remember what it was like coming into this life.. can anyone else? I hope leaving it is more pleasant.. *note*. No, I'm not suicidal or anything.. I wanted this existence every much as any one else..

somebody once said you can't go home.. or something like that.. why settle for stability, when one can have *this*... I don't know if I want to go home.. well.. eventually will have to I guess..

We can't return, only look behind.. I dunno.. who am I, to argue with the lady who defined Woodstock..

find the cost of freedom..

the questions of a thousand dreams.. what you do and what you see.. I won't say the rest..

we've been played one against another.. one lifetime after the next.. I guess it works..

all I can say is.. if one has a feeling.. hold on to it.. there aren't too many... :)

well.. it's only part of the agreement.. heh.. Probably a fair question would be.. what is it that you feel..

some of us were lucky and all..

"if you can't be with the one you love.." who do you love..

Sorry.. I'm just quoting words of the Prophets.. "Don't let it bring you down.. its only castles burning.."

Yeah.. the song for Mayor Daley.. in a land known as freedom, how can such a thing be fair.. somehow people must be free.. I hope the day comes soon..

"won't you please come to Chicago.."

Most of them are gone now.. Hoffman.. Rubin, Lennon..Delinger.. I think Tom Hayden is still with us.. along with his once bride.. where do we go from here.. :)