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every decade I have become something that I had no clue that I would become the decade before.. where is the certainty in that? One decade I became a husband and father.. I washed windows, cleaned dishes.. it was really fun. The next.. I became some kind of electronics expert. The next.. I moved from taking to giving. I used electronic knowledge to give back to the community.. I became a ham radio operator.. the next decade.. I became a mathematician.. this decade, I'm trying to figure out how to teach math.. becoming some kind of professor? now what. No idea.. but each step along the way has not been exactly logical. I feel like every ten years or so, I've peeled off one more layer after another.. weird, huh..

Certainty? One runs in the nearest direction.. I have a few certainties. One of them is from a dream when I was young.. very young. There was some construction down the street where I lived. There was a mound of sand, the neighborhood kids were playing with the sand. They had their little toy cranes, dumptrucks.. that is the real part of life. In the dream, it became a mound of nickels, dimes, quarters, half-dollars. All I could carry off, I could have.. so what does that tell me. I'll never be rich. No hundred dollar bills.. no cash hoard.. but all I really NEED, to carry off as I wish. So I'll never exactly starve, will I.. isn't that enough certainty? What more could I really want.. as far as THIS existence is concerned? I'm speaking as regards to physical existence.. If I was greedy, I'd write a few computer programs to work with finances, and rape and pillage some people's retirement accounts and pensions.. and social security..

Ha! well, I wasn't worried.. I figured it would come back to topic. But did it every really stray? "fornication" can be only really enjoyed by the spiritual elite.. it wasn't "sex". It was "getting one's needs met.." "relieving the tension of da manogawd so he could properly *minister* to da flock.. make his job "easier" so to speak. one has to see it in the "original" to really appreciate it.. abundance? I think it is related. Da manogawd and manogowdesses NEED a trip to the Bahamas to be fully rested enough to make the most important spiritual decisions regarding YOUR life. Of course they do.. proper accommodations.. miraculously trimmed groomed lawns..

some of us have evolved beyond that.. evolved? I dunno. Maybe that is not an apt description.. maybe.. compelled? maybe everybody needs that kind of experience.. you know. One look at some kind of light, and everything melts away, just shy of leaving this existence.. I abhor certainty, or the claim for it, anymore.. Why settle for certainty, when one can have a real direction to go in..

before doing so. Rub and wear a necklace made out of strung garlic.. wear a very large silver cross. carry a few wooden stakes..

thanks for your kind comments. the problem I have with the religion is.. when things go "wrong" so to speak, out come the excuses. Idiom of permission, various euphemisms.. It just seems to me, that most of the euphemisms and idioms attempt to attribute logic to a god which may not be exactly logical (human characteristic).. I'd say a lot more, but I'll try to stay on topic here..

Job was afflicted so the children and servants were "expendable"? Just so much raw material to expend to prove Job's righteousness? I mean.. these were living souls were they not? Did they deserve this? Or is it possible.. that they merely AGREED to this? Just a few questions.

I mean.. "sanity" is a human thought, isn't it? how can you attribute a human attribute to the Almighty.. these questions don't bother me much. I already know everything I ever believed or hoped to believe was just plain wrong..

but who is it to say.. it just seems to me.. the condescension, the idiom of permission, isn't this often used to soften what a reasonable person might interpret as insane acts? I used a little "g" for a reason. I'd go on, but yawl think I'm nuts enough as it is.

education is also reserved for the elite('s offspring). Needs basis BS.. below poverty wages. Pell grants.. seemed ok for the dedicated wayfer to provide education for his or her financially neglected offspring.. Health care. Same thing.. why live in abundance when you can exist in poverty? Maybe, just maybe.. the woman of the house will be called to da manogawd's parlor tonight..

Sometimes.. agape love has a far more powerful effect on the lover, not on the lover's object of love.. I cry for you. or with you.

Killing young children.. women.. hmm. is it possible that the god they held in such great reverence was just plain, out of his (or her) gourd insane?

Reminds me of the song "I am my own grandpa.." why can't they just let the "heritage" offered by an abusive second rate sexual deviant and con artist just die in obscurity..

I tried that. "The young man" is fully accountable for whatever evil transpires, as far as I am concerned.

What if.. what if it could happen in your neighborhood? No tent camping.. no slaverish bondage to some kind of insidious, drunken, "night owl"..

But we are talking about the gawd-given ability to freely fornicate with one's spouse, one's neighbor's spouse, along with all other w"willing" fmales within earshot of " God's Call".. under the unclouded sun here. Not mutilation. That might be subject for another thread.. I think the topic here is.. entitlement. *They* are entitled.. to do whatever they want, in broad daylight.. well.. at least until the lawyers intervene..

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Soooo. why should a socially inept.. intellectually inferior specimen be allowed to contribute to the gene pool.. maybe we have failed our mission hee..

yeh, the youngest kid looked a hell of a lot like loy. Gawd forbid. No thinking evil allowed here..

I know he did too.. He who was a limb, or region coordinator.. thewife was a F.O.X. Smart, too.. all "he" could ramble on was about some kind of agreement with was the proper assimilation of bread and vegetables..

The cats are superior to the simians. there are two cats here.. one had offspring, the other greatly objected. but they have been blessed with the innate knowledge as to how to take care of offspring.. immunity, puzzling.. yes. but it is there with the "lower" forms..

or.. closes many doors of perception..

Yeah.. some call it hypocrisy.

What if.. what if. rosie and the donster had some kind of miraculous conception or something.. and it needed somewhat less than divine intervention. i.e. human. some kind of saving surgery.. some COSTLY cure. All stops would b4 pulled out, would they not? Yeah.. the whole world is fighting about the same thing.. thanks for your comments friend.

There is no off topic here, my friend.. :)