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I question what a little insignificant "church" needs security for.. you know. A church in the middle of a cornfield.. reminds me of a movie.. children of the corn The only reason they probably didn't bother you was because it sounds like you didn't stop to actually look at anything..

I still think.. the most outrageous statement that possible could be is.. "we(?) are family.." you threw away your wild card.. now it cuts both ways.. what do you do now? Hide from what?

I duddno. destruction is cool, and all, even if it is my own..

I was one of those who were sent, but not in your particular context..

and why not? Why does it have to be, or not be pretty.. everything is or is not pretty.. ll Its all about Power.. we have willful minions..but it is such a small universe. Does it have to shrink to that? let's be honest here. I'm just sent to observe..

what are they afraid of? I mean.. if they want the organization to survive.. gotta do what you have to do. I've put myself in an unfortunate position. I've improved myself mentally and physically decade after decade. I'll probably fail body wise, long before intellectually wise.. is that the same for "those who rule" in da way? how long have they ruled.. forever.. really? for that long.. I love fiction.

does she(?) even have the Power to demote? I mean.. can't at least two vote her miserable hide off of "God's abundance" or some such? I have about 100 or more some such questions.. in the old days.. ermal and harry could have voted the victoid off the property.. aren't the same bylaws present to today? so we have two, or three, or four eunuchs, and da king(ess) ruling the kingdom.. It would not be the "fight" that they think it would be.. vote the grand(?) dam off.. what would she say.. ok fellas..

some among us would rephrase this. it is a pity that some of our former peers have lost sight of the vision of P.O.W. One of my local heros here displayed a "never forget" flag under his American flag.. a dear, dear friend, now "promoted to Glory" by his religion..

isn't that a double .. what is it. a double.. it took me a minute. Isn't this a mixed metaphor? and.. JL isn't Shakespeare, even in JL's wildest dreams..

Yeah, too old, but not old enough. Too old to remember.. Not old enough to drop the stupid smile with the proper kind of medication.. I mean, that is the question of a humble Squirrel. Does she still have mental "alacrity" or some such? or does the rest of the board just keep her "happy"? at whatever expense required. just curious.

Isn't she old enough to have long past forgotten where any skeletons (or swiss bank account numbers) are buried?

I think I understand why the locals have some fascination with "buzzing" the place.. they can see the hypocrisy. The outstretched arms of Jesus (ahem) rosie bidding them to partake of some Divine Goodness.. and then they check your i.d. at the door.. really.. "and which state are you from?" "who is your overseer?" "who oversees your overseer?" so one is "welcome" if one can pass seventeen levels of security.. then one waltzes (gently) on (no no no! never) on the well manicured grass.. have to pass five levels of "security" to just go to a damned church..

Johniam. I hope you aren't the same John (Iam?) who resides over these old relics.. Your wife does not have the same screen name as that in reality

Sowie. She road around with Wierwille. He wasn't a Doctor doncha know. I have about three copies of the book in possession of a local offshoot which "saved" them from going to Ebay. Email me, and perhaps I can give you the names of those who were has in it's "possession".

The deep end is cool. That is where everything really happens.. Why not jump off. In the deep end.. Isn't that where your "faith" resides?

Sorry if these are scary thoughts. I just hope they can figure out how to produce wine with locally grown vegetation. Not that I am not willing to offer the knowledge and guidance, however..

by the way, (and despite the Way) I still read the bible, when it is appropriate.. Jeremiah had a lot to say to me..

A donated and partially read copy of Tom Wolfe's book presently lies in the living room of the most likely candidate. I won't say who, they don't post here, yet. But the person loved the book.. They will probably post on the ex-affiliated board, of the organization they are presently involved with..

I'm sorry. Apologies are offered before hand. Give them a book which gives on giving.. one which guarantees "possession".. Just ignore me, I'm nuts. What can you expect of a humble Squirrel? Read Squirrelish s*it.. and you know the rest. You're going to H*ll in a handbasket..

there seem to be too many interpretations, but they are all good. What book.. how about Kesey's Garage Sale? or.. Wolfe's The Electric Kool Aid Acid Test.. or.. any other such good book that will get a wayfer possessed.. sowie. It's where I turned when way nonsense made no sense..

This semester, I'm teaching math at the basement level. the local community college hired me before I had the degree. So what am I teaching.. the last two math classes that anyone else did not take. they have no idea of what they are missing. I have assumed the role of my last professor.. I feel like I'm some kind of Indian guide, helping these students through the wilderness.. I know where they need to go and why.. it really can't get better than this.. well, if it can.. it will be when I have some of the same students in Intermediate Algebra, pre calc, calculus..

Oh, dreams, or nightmares. The last half a dozen here have only involved the presently living. Maybe I'm blessed or something..

I would love to meet him.. the Doctorate is about ten times harder.. if I were only twenty years younger, I would go for it.. I barely made it through the masters program here.. I think the only reason I made it, I found two professors who really loved me..

I found out later. several of these "associates" live in a tent or trailer at a campground, because they can't afford rent, at a reasonable place to live.. pay so low.. if they have children, one has to depend on government subsidies to provide basic health care.. big bizz is literally leaching off of what it despises, big government.. hates it.. but can't exist without it.. sounds kinda like a heroin addiction.. who is supplying the drug though? sowie. Just thinking here..

what does one do when.. no frigging joke. I'm in the middle of applying the maximum logic to an endeavor, unlike before. That is, studying mathematics close to the closure of a Bachellor's degree.. no kidding.. I walk into our favorite store. Savings abound. and every associate has horrible scars and massive infected sores.. I started chanting. Really. No, not speaking in tongues.. that didn't really do anything for me when the real s*it hit the fan here about ten years ago.. Java Jane, I hope this does not go too far off subject here..