I hate to be the one to break it to you, Mike, but.....
you overrate your significance on this board.
Things don't revolve around you, nor do we wish you'd suddenly start posting again when you take a break.
This SHOULD be comforting- as in, there's less pressure to perform, but more likely, it's LESS comforting for someone who's still searching for converts to his belief system.
BTW, being on the spectrum would remove a lot of the stigma of your refusal to converse in a civil manner like everyone else, since you might be unable to see the difference. That wouldn't be an "attack", it would partly excuse you for previous incidents.