excathedra

hate me hate me hate me hate me we have no idea where a person has come from hate me hate me hate me hate me ?

it's about power, control, illness not really about sex and certainly nothing about love which is what we all (well, me) need the most ?

stevie, actdearest and i -- we were all posting at the same time :)--> ?

ohmygosh i wasn't appealing !!!!! i was just vulnerable or something i guess. i told wierwille about being sexually abused as a girl and everything. told him he was my "father." puke. it still shocks me that he would have a lustful interest knowing my heart soul past whatever you call it. that kind of betrayal is the worst. of course i'm not a young girl anymore. but i've even known adults who really look up to their ministers and therapists and get into a "love" (sexual) relationship. people who are entrusted with that kind of privilege really really have a lot to think about and answer to. ?

thanks guys (all inclusive) :)--> you're great ?

krys you are a riot ! ?

thank you early, i love what you said ?

oh goodie ?

thanks dottie. i just felt weird. and thank you galen. oldies-- it is a gross vision, isn't it ? ha ha ha ha ha but true nonethelessanyway, i am not really sure about the drugging thing. i just know that each time he tried to "heal" me on the coach, i cried, begged no, and left.... until the time prophet ralph kramden (sorry jackie) gave me something to drink. next thing i remember i was in the back of the bus looking at these dead eyes. but it was like watching a movie from far away. i've never been sure if it was my mind protecting me or something else. but it was very weird. then when i was asleep over on the other side, he came over and nudged me with his you-know-what and i played possum and thank god he went away. and that was the first and last time. i knew marsha (not very well) and i remember all the talk about how she was possessed with many devils. poor girl. she really got the shaft. wierwille did not care when girls were broken as long as it protected his "reputation." i had a friend (more than one, now that i think about it) who got called to headquarters for mental help after they had been with him. same with craig. ?

or should i say same pelt different skunk meaning i don't believe in any of these smells ;)--> ?

not so different same BS different MOG in my humble opinion ?

damn litwin, you're right, you are !!!!! ?

early, what do you mean ?thanks. ?

new knoxville should be in a hole ?

thank you dear sunesis ps. would you kindly email me ? thanks ?

oh christ. please stop. you are my dear friend so i understand your loving heart and generosity. but i am embarrassed. everyone has been thru sh i t. no one can measure it but the person who went through it. i love you. thanks. but let's not talk about me. let's talk about that f uc ker veepee ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha sowwy :)--> ?

i meant "no comment" ROR ?

much love ?

if i ever went back to church again, i would go to sock's or tom heller's house but i'm on the east coast so there you go :)--> ?

and he is such a good man. i love him. ?

no ?

oh my life's dream?

ditto ?

i got other names i do i do ?

but that girl looks like her guts are hanging out :(--> ?