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I don't know if twi made me more "like a man" as far as emotions are concerned. But it did make me extremely critical of people in general without any kind of real empathy toward them. I think it did that to men too though.

Hi Dot. I'm so sorry about your loss at a young age. It's a club I hate to see anyone have to join. Your experience left you scarred in that you can never leave with an angry word. I fight to keep back my fears EVERY SINGLE TIME my daughter, my husband, or anyone else I love leaves my presence. It's been my constant curse. When one of them fails to show up when they're expected I literally freak out sometimes.

My mother and father died together in a car accident 34 years ago when I was just 16 years old. It was at a time when we were not getting along all too well. As you can imagine, 16 year old girls can be a handful for their parents. They left in the car after dinner one night. My dad came back into the house after I thought they were gone to get something he had forgotten. The last thing I said to him was, and I quote "What are YOU doing here?" You see, I thought I had the house to myself and I was annoyed that one parent was back in the picture, even briefly, to ruin my autonomy. I never saw my mom or my dad again. I never have found closure concerning this turn of events. I don't think I ever will, that is, until we're all in heaven and I can find them both and apologise, tell them how much I love them, how much I missed them, tell them how sorry I am that things went the way they did. Life really sucks sometimes doesn't it?

Dick's target has had a heart attack. Caused by birdshot migrating into his heart. I bet Dick feels REEEEEEAL good about now.

To WayferNot, thank you for your kind words about my absence from Greasespot. As far as my comment about chairs in a circle goes, what I meant was, if I had a fellowship in my home, I would want to leave the home setting EXACTLY AS IT WAS before the fellowshippers arrives. This is because I like gatherings that are INFORMAL. Also, I WOULD NOT WANT IT TO FEEL LIKE A MEETING. To me, a circle of chairs feels like an artificial setting setup for a meeting. I hated that about twigs that did it. I much more enjoyed coming to someone's house and gathering around in the living room. If seating space was available, I'd sit there. If not, the floor was fine with me. Cheers

I haven't thought about this much, but one thing I know I definitely WOULD NOT DO, and that is force everyone to sit in CHAIRS IN A CIRCLE!:wub:

Thanks to Kit for always remembering all our birthdays. And thanks to everyone else who wishes me happy birthday. A small correction, however, my birthday is on March 17, St. Patty's day. I STILL HAVE THREE MORE DAYS BEFORE I'LL BE 49. Let's not rush things. nolongerworking

Thank you Mark, but I figured it out by myself. Go look in my picture thread to see. nolongerworking

Yeah Jardinero! Happy Birthday to you! nolongerworking

I'm trying to post some pictures to my new picture thread, but all my pics are jpeg files and are, therefore, TOO BIG. How can I transform them to something smaller so I can attach them to my posts? Thank you in advance for your input :)--> nolongerworking

Jonny, generally I love your posts, however, most women could say the same thing about men. If there were no men, we wouldn't have had the boss, college professor, soccer coach, whoever is male and older, try to seduce us wherever we were when we were sixteen. nolongerworking

Mine is similar to Coolwaters, the way I raised my daughter. My very rigid way of child-rearing learned in twi. My fear of letting her just be a kid. My dragging her around to all those meetings. Moving all the time so she could never develop long time childhood friendships. Etc etc etc. Oh yeah, and the mindset that it was not only ok, but necessary to hit your kids when they didn't behave. nolongerworking

The WOW's that ran the first twig I ever attended were pretty poor. So, me and one of the other female twig-goers decided we would go clothes shopping for some new and stylish duds for the guys. We went out and bought about three outfits of jeans/cords and matching shirts, some socks, etc. Then we wrapped each outfit up and hid the packages in vaious places in our apartment. Then we mad up clues to send them on a scavenger hunt to find all the packages. We cooked dinner for them and had the scavenger hunt after dinner. That night was really, really fun. Another night we decided that we would all go out for a BBQ at a nearby camping/picnic spot. The catch was that it was after midnight when we decided to go. We went to an all-night grocery store and bought BBQ items (burgers and corn on the cob I think) and drove to the picnic spot which was a ways out of town. We proceeded to have our BBQ in the headlights of one of the vehicles. That night was pretty fun too. My first twig was really really great. If anyone out there in GreaseSpot land recognizes these two events, you were probably in my first twig. If you Be**y W, Be** John***, Jer** Het***, De**y McG**, hats off to you if you are out there reading this. You all really, really blessed my life. I will remember you all always with warm thoughts and great joy. Oh, another thing we did was go to to the U of Missouri campus one night and play Seek and Hide. That's where the person who is "IT" is the one who goes and hides. The "SEEKERS" all hide their eyes and count to 100. As the seekers find the person who is "IT" they hide with him/her. The last person to find the group is the next "IT". We did this with about 10 or 12 people late at night on the University campus. That night was pretty fun too. nolongerworking

Apparently, I am Storm. You are Storm! You are very strong and very protective of those you love. You are in tune with nature and are very concerned with justice and humanity. Unfortunately, certain apprehensions and fears are very hard for you to overcome, and can often inhibit you when most need to be strong. nolongerworking

I propose to have the weenie roast on the beach in Santa Cruz, California. Or maybe in Golden Gate Park. nolongerworking

Happy belated birthday Alfakat! Hope you had lots of fun! nolongerworking

Will somebody please come to the chat room and talk to me??? nolongerworking

Cats: Barry (deceased), Otis, Bill, Bob, Abner, Toby (deceased), Gordon (deceased), Hannah, Jackson (deceased) and Hisser Dogs: Heidi and Maxwell These are all our pets current and past since we have lived in our current house for 12 years. nolongerworking

I have bipolar disorder and am going thru menopause at the same time. Imagine the possibilities..... nolongerworking

Last year at Thanksgiving, on Thanksgiving Day to be precise, we experienced a major family crisis which some of our family are still paying the price for. This year, hubby and I are flying to Massachusetts, just to be safe! We all know the holidays are supposed to be all lovey dovey and such, but for many people, they can be a time of extreme emotional and/or physical conflict. Please devote some time this year to prayer for those less fortunate than yourself. In our case, we are not needy at all, as far as the eye can see. But we were extremely needy in other ways. In fact, only God knows where real need exists. Prayer changes things. Prayer is giving. Please devote lots of time this holiday season to it for both your own family and for others. You will be "giving" more than you will ever know. nolongerworking

Paw, would it be possible to start a PICTURES forum area. Complete with simple instructions for posting pictures? I'd love to look at everyone's pictures, but at the moment they're posted all over the place. Plus, people have trouble posting them. Could this be done? nolongerworking

Happy Birthday Chinny!!!! (((chinny))). nolongerworking

I learned that there are probably more good, decent, kindhearted people outside of church than inside of church. nolongerlurking

I remember that one QQ. Spouse and I are avid West Wingers. Yes, I've been watching Bravo West Wing reruns also. Unfortunately real life often interferes with the first run of each show so having the chance to see the episodes I missed on Bravo is cool. nolongerlurking

Thinking of you Wayfernot and all others in Southern California. Those fires can be a real B1TCH!!! God be with all of you. nolongerlurking