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Imbus, I really don't know the answer to that...I sometimes wonder if twi had it all wrong and just maybe......well you never know and we really won't know for sure until he comes to get us, I guess. Good topic, btw!!!

Hello Out There!!!!! Welcome to our home, enjoy the best coffee ever!!!!

thanks you all!!! Alfa, I have truly missed your posts around here. Thought maybe you were going to be gone for good. And I didn't write down your e-mail address from private posts. Do you ever get up to the seattle area? I may be going there this summer some time.

Thankyou, all!!!! Had a few giggles and love your sense of humor. I had a pleasant birthday. Bob and the kids took me out to a mexican restraunt. It was a new place for us and it had exellent food. Felt like I was in mexico.

Chwester!!!!! So glad to see you...I haven't seen too much controversy without you....lol I've missed you!!! I really have... :)--> Thanks for sharing, I am excited to take a look at the book.

Wow, dot, this stuff is something to really think about!!!!! I just read over the first page and am going to look more into it when I have more time. Thanks so much for sharing this...All I can say again is, WOW!!!!!

Happy birthday, rascal!!!!! I hope you have a great day on your birhday!!!!

Have a great day on your special day, freeatlast!!!!!!!

I don't think thats true that vpw was not racist...does anyone remember when a certain I think 7th corps black man married a white woman and what happened? I'm asking because if my memory serves me right he was not happy about it.

Well roy, I think that your writings on this thread are contradictory. My life is an open book...if I don't share its because its none of anyones dam business. If I don't share it is not because I'm trying to hide from anyone. What shell said is very correct. We really don't know people here and your opening yourself up to trouble.

It wasn't like any heavy revy stuff, but was just a simple heartfelt prayer.

Dearest exie, Yes, she did tell me what was wrong with her before I prayed for her. All I prayed about was healing for whatever was wrong with her and asked God to heal her.

I was at church last sunday and in bible group the leader asked me to stay behind. She told me that she was having physical problems and so I asked her if she would like for me to pray for her. She said yes and so I did. She wrote me an e-mail this week thanking me because she had been healed. She said that she was not expecting anyone to minister healing to her. To me it was just a prayer not ministering to anyone. In some ways I felt that I was back in twi in the old days. It was very heartfelt as in I felt that I speaking actually to God. I know that a lot of us don't believe in this stuff anymore. So to me it was really weird. I don't know if I believe or not. The inner me wants to believe that this is actually what took place. I want to see the miracles. But another part of me wants to not believe it because its what twi believed. Does anyone else have that problem?

Do you think its the middle age thinking that gets us to be thinking and reflecting of our lives? Interesting thought. Its not like I feel like I am desparate for friendship and love like I was when I left twi. Its just that I would like to be around more normal people but also help the ones that need help but not get so involved with them. I'd like to find that middle ground somewhere. The part that I said this is not friendship in the true sense I feel that I need to elaborate on. Coming here to GS is real, as in all the healing that I have gone through and the support I've received from you all. But its not real in the sense that I can't hear your voice and know truly what your saying...I don't have to deal with you on a day to day life. If I don't want to deal with you I just don't have to come back to this sight. Or after today I may not see you in gs anymore. It happens. But your real in the sense that you have been through what I've been through and understand more than anyone else in my life what it actually was that I did when I was younger. You understand the enticements, the reasons why we did everything we were told, the seclusion. I don't know, though who you really are behind that computer. I know the words that you say, I can know what you feel by what you have typed. But the real inner you, the daily living stuff, no I don't. As with me. I want you all to know me and so I try to express as much of how I feel here, but its hard to come out with just the words to express that.

Happy Birthday Sara!!!! Hope you have a great day!!!! I knew your husband back when he lived in greenville, south carolina. That is when he first took pfal. Tell him hi for me.

lmao, tom, I'm so glad your not afraid of me...whew in fact I'm relieved!!!!!!!!!!

LOL dot,yes but he was so desparate that he was sometimes slutty but he did have class to him where roz didn't. I thought that they went together well because they were so different from each other but was such good friends and were there for each other when they needed it. The chemistry with roz was a lot more there than the woman that he did pick in the end. But of course this is only a tv show. I did enjoy the many years of this show and the end was a true disappointment.

Thank you all. Great advice. In some ways I don't want to change that loving, giving side of me. Bob has a sarcastic hard side to him which I do admire in him but would find it distastful for me because its not me. But, I do find that I do get hurt quite a bit because of it and just haven't figured out how to not change in that respect but not get deeply hurt at the same time. I think I did learn to be too open and have friends too instant and you all are right in real life it doesn't happen that way. It does take time to develop that friendship but I just don't know how to put that hold on it to make it slower. My one true friend I've had since I was 8 years old lives in seattle and I would trust her with my life. But she lives in seattle and I don't talk to her much anymore because she lives so far away and our lives are so different from each other. I remember when I first left twi I was so desparate for a friend that I would actually chase people to talk to them just like I was witnessing. It was the only way I knew after all those years of being in twi. Because I got in twi at such an early age I didn't have a chance to learn socially how to make the friends as people my age have gone through. In some ways that makes me so angry that I lost those years to learn and other times I am thankful for having the friends that I did. I mean if it wasn't for twi I wouldn't be getting to know you all, now would I? But then realistically as we all are getting to know each other and spend time on the computer to each other, this is not true friendship in a sense. But, I do feel that is healthy for all the support we all give to each other. I hope you all understand what I'm saying.

That site of pat's wasn't bad at all...I can't figure out why the heck anyone would want to sue him for that...I just checked it out...is there another reason I'm not seeing? I can see this is controversial but after looking at the sight I can't figure out why.

Psalmie, same here as far trusting too much and then not trusting at all...I haven't found the middle yet. Where is it? LOL suzie, I always knew you were but since that is the friends I make..... :D--> I still love ya!!!!

I'm asking because I just went through this again. Its very frustrating!!!!!!!!

Do you still find it hard to have a friendship that you trust too much too soon and find that that person was not who you thought they were? I keep going through this over and over, you would think that after being out of twi for 17 years I would have learned my lesson by now. I think I feel that I have to 'love' the unlovable and give them the benefit of the doubt. So I become their friend as no one else will be. I find them nice and so then I trust and then find out why others won't be friends with them. I especially find friends that as bob terms them as psycho women. He will tell me from the beginning that these women have psyco problems and I still trust these people. Then, I find out he was right after all. You would think these kind of people would be thankful for friendship. lol Please don't psycho analyze me, just wondering if its some lasting twi ish thing that I haven't knocked off yet. Does anyone else have this problem?

Happy birthday, mstar!!!

Larry, haven't seen you around lately, hope your birthday is great!!!!

Have a great birthday, john!!!!!