Nottawayfer

Thanks you guys. I've had a lot of resentment against certain people in twi. I wanted to get over this and mov eon. A definition of resentment someone gave to me today from their AA meeting is: Resentment is like drinking poison and hoping the other person dies. Whoa. I'm not going to drink that poison anymore. Faith is daring the soul to go beyond what the eyes can see.

One of the things I notice about myself since leaving is that it is hard for me to say sorry or apologize. I hate this about myself, and I especially hated it while still in. I learned this from the best of the best corps. Even when they were wrong, they never apologized. They always found a reason to skirt around it and still make the other person look weak or foolish. I'm really trying to take notice to this in myself and change it. Anything else somebody can contribute that helped you be better since leaving would be greatly appreciated. Faith is daring the soul to go beyond what the eyes can see.

ps--yes other people would turn you in (reprove you) for not following the dining room rules. It got pretty religious and legalistic even in the dining room. Faith is daring the soul to go beyond what the eyes can see.

Absolutely NOT! They don't allow you to bring your own items to the table. It is considered rude to do so. My opinion is WHATEVER!!! --> It's all part of the nazi dictatorship. The food services coord said it was donna martindale who suggested that they put veggie salt, cayenne pepper, and kelp on the tables. I'm wondering why she thought she was so knowledgeable to determine what the people WANTED. Gee whiz; when the darn trustees have regular white salt and black pepper on their table, you'd think the rest of the masses would get it too. I guess they aren't privileged enough. whatever.......... Glad I don't put up with it anymore. Faith is daring the soul to go beyond what the eyes can see.

At HQ it was vegetable salt, cayenne pepper, and salt. No regular white salt or regular black pepper was to be found-----except at the trustee table. Figures. I hated that!! Faith is daring the soul to go beyond what the eyes can see.

I am more tolerant of other people's opinions, beliefs, and decisions. I consider myself growing. Although I am changing, I find it hard to find a church to go to. I am so darn critical. I want one who belives in SIT, ye is not a holy roller, yet who is a Bible believing church. I went online to find one through a search in my area. I found one that was "gently charismatic". I thought "Oh, great." I called and found it was episcopalian--basically catholic, not much Bible. Oh well, I'll keep searching. Maybe I'll change some more in the mean time. ;)--> Faith is daring the soul to go beyond what the eyes can see.

When I left, she just graduated from the Corps with an assignment to HQ in Switchboard. If you call, maybe she will answer the phone. They usually say who they are when they answer the phone. This was almost 2 years ago, so anything could have happened between then and now. Faith is daring the soul to go beyond what the eyes can see.

Quote by Mike: Data purposely hident by Dr under God's influence? Maybe it was the God of Drambui and sexual perversion influence. So far, Mike hasn't shared anything that would convince me that PFAL is God-breathed. He hasn't convinced me that mastering PFAL would benefit my life. I did the PFAL thing for many years. There is no magic PFAL formula. Believing does not equal receiving--**** happens in life and you deal with it. So if your desire never comes to pass, was it because you didn't BELIEVE GOD BIG ENOUGH? Me thinkest not. Mike, you must realize that NOTHING vpw hid to be revealed at a later date will benefit my life. I have no desire to know what a drunken pervert has to reveal to me. Of course, I believe your revealings of Vic's heart is all your own PRIVATE INTERPRETATION!!! Kindness is the oil that takes the friction out of life.

She is from Tennessee. She was a Way Disciple in Chicago, and on Staff after WD. I was on Staff with her, and someone told me at the acs that she left. I know she went back to Tennessee about 1999 or 2000 after being on Staff. I tried to look her up on the internet to no avail. Anybody know anything about her? Kindness is the oil that takes the friction out of life.

Walker, I think your "title" changes by the number of posts you have. I did a thread on this earlier this week because I noticed my name changed twice this week. I used to be GS Regular, then Knows the menu too well. Now I'm titled Claims to live here. I just got 300 posts this week when that changed. Kindness is the oil that takes the friction out of life.

Happy Birthday Lindy! I can only picture you as a cute, bright-eyed, young boy of 9 or so since that's how old you were the last time I saw you. You were cute then, and I'm sure you still are! ;)--> It must be a great time for you getting prepared for your baby's birthday next month!! It will be exciting, and I'll be itching to hear! I'm sure your mom will be excited also to be a grandma (1st time right?). Kindness is the oil that takes the friction out of life.

If you have memorable experiences with this person, that is always a good way to present yourself again. I always enjoy when someone remembers something fun we shared together. I have an innie friend who I went hiking with. We did this about 6 years ago, and we still talk about that one killer day we hiked for 14 miles and talked about men. We had a blast! :D--> Kindness is the oil that takes the friction out of life.

Here's an example of the immunity to lies and crap. When the tape was played of lcm's admission of an "affair", I cried because I thought it was going to be the fog years all over again. What a dummy; my reaction now is that I'd like to kick him where it hurts. He is a big disappointment; but I'm even madder at myself that I even supported a MAN. Kindness is the oil that takes the friction out of life.

I think I'm a perfect example of the threshold level. I had a very high threshold to twi's bs. My sister asked me why I was so loyal to a fault. That hit me hard, but I needed to hear it. If a wayfer really wants to see things get better, they will wait it out. I was this way even though I was extremely po'd by things I had seen. When I received information that helped me to make my exit, it was like a final blow for me. It proved the dishonesty of the bod. I know a lot of innies who feel the bod is dishonest, but they have a reverance to the ministry and keeping it together. Some don't even know about vp's crap. Sometimes people hear so much bad stuff, they become immune to it. It's sad, but true--IMHO. That's when I realized I needed to get "F" out, when I became immune to the bad treatment I saw happening. Kindness is the oil that takes the friction out of life.

Oldies I agree that these issues should be mandatory for twi except I don't believe anyone should have the right to tell anyone to marry or divorce anyone. It is their decision whether they will do it or not and their decision on the timeframe they choose to make a decision. I do believe however, that Donna should not be allowed to stay at HQ and live off the ABS. The other things Oldies mentioned are great ones. As a matter of fact when Rosie was installed, I thought I remembered lcm saying that they were considering that bot level is not going to be considered a life-time position. At the time I thought he was bringing it up so he could have an excuse to be lazy and "retire." Anyway, he left and nothing ever became of that. It probably won't. IMHO--something like this may (or may not)keep crap like lcm from coming in. It would at least keep it from staying--like Bill Clinton. (The Bill Clinton thing is not meant to offend, just my humble opinion ;)-->) One other important issue that needs to be addressed is anyting that invoves with people making their own decisions. Like how many times they attend fellowship, a class, or any thing else. Those kinds of things should not be mandated. People shouldn't get flack from that. Another thing is ditch the "true household of God" bs. My gawd, the Word clearly says it is the Body of Christ!!! They need to stop separating themselves and see the big picture. People shouldn't be thrown out with the bathwater if they decide The Way is not for them. While I was still in, we had a girl who came to fellowship. She loved being with us, but she was raised Jewish and didn't believe the things about Jesus and what he accomplished for us. The FC (nazi) basically shunned her. This girl still wanted to hang out and be friends. But because she didn't accept the doctrine, the fc kicked her to the curb. IMHO--this girl could still benefit from hanging out with us. She may have changed her mind. My gosh, this girl definitely wasn't out to change us. She truly liked us. That FC didn't give her a CHANCE (not opportunity). After all that happened, we saw the girl one more time because we had gone to Hollywood to see a production. This girl came because she had planned it previously and already paid for her tickets. The FC was a cold b-i-t-c-h to this poor girl. I'm sad that I didn't keep up with this girl myself. I pray that I run in to her and show her what real friendship is--no matter what you believe. She really has a great heart. She made us all Christmas ornaments (she loved Christmas even though she's Jewish). She was so happy to be involved during Christmas. We had a coffee house, and she even read some stories there. She had only been coming to fellowship a few weeks. She really had a great heart to give. Kindness is the oil that takes the friction out of life.

In my observations and experiences of dealing with different leadership, they lie to cover up whatever they want without any sense of remorse. It's hard to confront people when they don't own up to their wrongdoings. Just like John R.'s letter to rosie. She never answered his questions, and she skirted around the issues. Kindness is the oil that takes the friction out of life.

I used to eat with Rhoda W. all the time while at HQ. Since I never went on ex-way sites before leaving HQ, I never thought to ask her questions. I wonder if VP had her type from the books of those other men, or if he actually copied it down himself. That would be an interesting question to pose to her; maybe I'll get the guts to call her up. She is very alert for her age and has the memory of an elephant. (Elephant? Where did that come from? Anybody know?) Anyway, she use to tell me all kinds of things. She was the official Way slave from the early days. Bless her heart. Laughter is a tranquilizer with no side effects.

I remember when the fog years hit. I kept asking what was going on. I wasn't corps, so I didn't know anything except what leadership chose to tell me. They kept telling me CG accused the bot. I asked what they were being accused of. I was told it wasn't important since it was a lie. I asked how do you know who is right? lcm could say he was right, and CG could say he was right. I was told to ask God. God didn't tell me, otherwise He would have told me to get the "F" out in 1987-88 when I was asking these questions. Nobody asked for proof from lcm to prove he was right, they just took his word for it. I take people's word for it if they tell me an experience they had unless they give me a reason not to. Some may say I'm naieve, but I agree with Hope that they don't have anything to benefit by divulging the information. I dont' agree that GS is about PFAL. There are people who never took that stupid class. It's about people sharing experiences and venting frustrations to help them move on and then forget about the time they spent in a horrendous cult. For some people, this may take longer. I don't judge how long it takes for anybody to heal. Laughter is a tranquilizer with no side effects.

Wayward: You know it would raise some suspicions without a doubt. I would think that they would "ask" (really TELL) you to change it. Anything to cover their @$$. I knew someone who was in the Corps and got booted. This person told me the in-rez corps were grumbling about the way things were after the lcm lawsuit. The Corps coord, G**g B******k had a meeting telling them they could bring whatever they wanted out to be discussed. I think I mentioned this in another thread. The point is that they were told they could bring things up, and then got their @$$E$ kicked for doing so. One guy didn't get answers (I'm sure because the questions had too many legal liabilities behind them), so he wrote rozilla a letter. He got booted from the corps shortly thereafter. What does rozilla hide? I want to find this guy to talk to him. Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strength.

Quote from Cherished Child: Waydale is the exact reason for the copyright on all their documents. When I was on Staff, we were told we didn't have to fill out vacation itinerary forms anymore, but we still had to provide our itinerary on our own format. Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strength.

Al Pacino. He's a great actor. Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strength.

Last I knew, she was still there. I left HQ August 2001 and she was still there. Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strength.

Lindy that is so sad. I feel for young adults when this happens. It is so sad especially during times like high school when it is so important to have a social life with people your own age. TWI claims that your needs can be met in their beloved household. I say Bulls*it!! Look at how many single women there are (over-aged at that) because there are not enough single "believer" men for them to marry. The needs of people are not met in their beloved household!! It makes me mad, mad, mad!!!

Rottie, I sent you a private topic.

I never heard about this memo either. I didn't even hear that the ministry's position on debt changed either. I think what you hear depends on what area you are in (like-minded my @$$!!). I left in December 2002, maybe I missed this. Although I do know someone who asked their FC about the policy on debt, and they were told there never was a policy on debt (liar, liar, pants on fire). TWI thinks that people don't talk. At the ACS, that's all people did--compared notes. Maybe more will start smartening up to realize that there is something stinking in NK, and it might be Rozi.